Wednesday, June 07, 2006

Don't understand, don't need, don't want to know...

06/06/06 (Triple six) Tuesday

Done with training last Friday... Now working part time cuz not enough staff... At first Ah Tong asked me to work for a couple of weeks only, but then asked me to continue... I would want to (for the money) but i want to have a wonderful holiday as well... >.<"

Went Genting last weekend for 988 10th anniversary birthday bash... Was very excited about it at first, but it wasn't as good as i expected... The performances for most of them were great, but some got pitching problem, embarassing moments happened and even lyrics forgotten... 100 put their names, but less than 50 of us cheering together...

Overnight at Gohtong... Had thong sui for supper, met a cute Daniel fan there named 'Ting Tong'... She screams whenever we show her stuff/pics of Daniel... so cute la she... Went back and chit chat till 7am in the morning... All out... (If you know what i mean)... All i can say is, the old ones shall leave, let the new blood come in...

Things weren't smooth last week... I would say, since i gave out the backstage pass... All because of jealousy, miscommunications, misunderstandings, misinterpretations... Even best friends can become enemies due to these u know... I cried every night after that incident... And i guess only Ostro understands why... :D This shows how an emo person i am... I admit, i'm very very sensitive regarding people around me, my friends, my colleagues, my boss, everybody! I am too scared about people backstabbing me behind my back, i'm scared about people hating me... I'm scared what i do or don't do will annoy them... Unity was what we promised each other, but now, what's obvious? I tried my best to patch things up, but... I guess people just won't realize their own mistakes... Including myself...

Daniel has his own blog now... It's good... IMO, i think he is the type of person who loves to write about his own feelings and thoughts... Suddenly called him 'donkey' in front of everyone... But it suits him! =p I think he's scared of me... I shall go MIA from now on...

Starting to worry about my future... Should i continue degree or not? What shall i work as? I'm missing my childhood days... Rarely going to the park now... I miss badminton!! I miss swimming! I miss going out 'jalan jalan cari makan' with my friends and 'gossip gossip' with them!

2 comments:

ian said...

hehe ill be back real soon, you are definitely welcomed to call number 45 and take him out for lunch or sumthing haha :)

Shin Sar said...

hey gal. I guess both of us are experiencing the same thing. I know you are in a very difficult position - caught in the middle. Don't let it bother you. Don't force yourself to choose. Just enjoy yourself. One thing I can assure you, I'm always here, no matter who you've chosen/ you'll choose. ;)