Thursday, June 12, 2014

down down dei

Today, down down dei.
Don't know why.
Saw the quote "the best way to avoid disappointment is to not expect anything from anyone' and i started having teary eyes. T.T
Partly maybe I keep seeing people waste food.
How does two person get along?
What do each other want from each other.
How do you ensure to have a good relationship.

Tuesday, January 07, 2014

Summary of 2013

It's been quite some time since I last wrote here. Well, no feel to write already, but just wanna conclude my 2013 here.

I resigned from my 4 year job of kitchen life and now doing a stall business with my family at my neighborhood area. Of course, there were uncertainties, there ARE uncertainties even as now, as in will I ever quit this business and go back into kitchen. You meet new people along the path and you see different attitudes and personalities. It seriously amazes me, at how people can be, how they can be like that.

2013, was emotional. Lol, every year is emotional for me. Envy, sad, happy, laughter. I get so disappointed at how a few of my family member changed into, happy that I met new people, traveled to Hatyai and Taiwan, and attended few friends' wedding dinner. Every year, I learn that, honesty, trust and kindness is very important. It's nice to know if someone have you in their mind. But, never expect anything, because you will end up being very disappointed when it never happened.

2013, still lol - lack of love. partner-less. What is love to you. How does it feel like, to be loved? i keep question about that. But never get to know the answer. What is most important among each other? How come i feel more cared 4 years ago than now. Our feelings tend to turn to more hatred and bad tongued, annoyed and irritant. We tend to complain about what other people do wrong than compliment what they do right. Atmosphere changed. No more family gatherings with all sitting together laughing around, no more happy moments, no more present exchange, no more christmas or cny mood, nobody to be around me. Whatever I have faith in, never seem to come true.

But, nevertheless, I still thank those who have guided me and be with me for the past year. New or old friends, whether we just meet 1 time or 50 times, I thank you all for being part of it. I thank God for coming into my life and blessing me with things that I have health and necessities and ability to earn for myself and have desires and wants. That I can travel and have important people in my life. It is all a blessing already.

Resolution for this year, haha, hopefully all I will achieve them:
1. Sponsor a child
2. Donate blood (I couldn't donate last week because I did acupuncture 4 months ago)
3. Lose weight (hardest part @.@)
4. Travel to somewhere new
5. Love

Wishing everyone a blessed 2014, happy always.

Saturday, August 10, 2013

4 years..

After 4 years and 3 months working, I finally resigned. It's been almost 2 weeks since my last day working, been lazing around, cooking a little bit, but had not been able to bake because my oven is not functioning. Sigh. I have a long list to bake but not able to. Besides baking, there's little I can cook because nobody will eat, my family usually eat out, with my grandma and aunt, plus I have not enough space to store them. Myself? Well, trying to cut down on carbo, plus, somehow the more i cook the more i don't eat my own cooked phood >.<"

I have a long list of restaurants to try. Need to lose my belly fat but so tough when you love to eat. When I'm sad I find phood, when i'm happy I find phood, when I have nothing to do I find phood as well. 

Well, I don't know if it's a right choice to make actually. I left a place that I am happy being at, stable and able to go up further, but, I feel that I am lazing, I am being too comfortable. Perhaps it's God's way of telling me that I should walk another path. But, is this path right? Perhaps I will lose my skills. Lose information on the path that I left. Lose a lot of guidance.

But of course, I've learnt a lot these 4 years. Get to know worthy people, teaching people and learn from them as well. It was not smooth of course, there were very depressed moments, emotionally and professionally, not just on work but also on life, on being a right person, things will never be the same again, but I guess it's through those that I learn my lesson. Thank you all for being a part of my life. May this memory and friendship last forever.

It's a wonderful beginning in my work life. Able to learn so much and know so many people, whether I will get back in this line, God knows. Thank you for the basics, although I don't think I have learned 100% everything but thank you. I guess others expectation is that they expect me to grow in this line higher and higher, but I dont think I have the creativity in such high standard, simple phood perhaps I can, comfort phood perhaps I can, but not fine dine. Will I be a chef? I don't know.

Sunday, July 14, 2013




Saturday, June 29, 2013

To forget someone you love, is like trying to remember someone you've never met, or waiting for a ship at the airport.