Tuesday, December 04, 2007

I wished...

Great... now that I've given my mum Boolicious's masak-masak blog site, from day one onwards she's been printing out probably three quarter of her blog posts out. And visiting other links at her blog. And she's been reading blogs to blogs. I wonder if it was a good thing that I introduced to her. I'm just scared she'll end up able to search mine and read all my posts *die*

Anyway. Busy busy busy. I realize I lack of time to do my dissertation already. Thanks to my laziness. Gotta push myself harder now. Busy december.

Today, I did something that I swore I won't do anymore. I was ordered to give out flyers at the roadside. Darn. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. My muka not tebal enough to do all these. Arghh! Samore have to do 3 days. Life is so unfair.

I dreamt about someone yesterday. Ridiculously, him. Of all people, him. Thanks to *you people* (You know who you are) Eww.. Aherm! Aherm!

Sigh, I wished I didn't go into that *issue* just now. I wished I could turn back time. CY is right, maybe I should just pack and leave and just stay in Penang with her. Does 'it' matter so much? Is 'it' so so so important that 'it' will decide for you to be happy or not? Without 'it', people will die is it? Friends konon. Family konon. Without it, I think this family don't matter much to you. I don't think you even treat this family as your friends. Can't even enjoy yourself with your family without 'it'. WTF. So disappointed. Being able to help out is not an enjoyable thing? What a bullshit. Different mindset. What to do.

I'm glad I am not involved. I'm glad I didn't help out. If not, I think I already bocor my arteries and veins. I'm glad I have to go to work and enjoying my other interests. I wished I could have just focused MORE on my work and other interests. I wished I move to Penang and not come back. I don't want to go back listening to all these bulls and shyts anymore. It doesn't matter to me. It might once be, but not anymore. I just want to enjoy myself. No matter what it is. "It" or not "it".

Angry me *grrrrr* I wished...

2 comments:

chunyiun said...

Ok..1st of all, i have ahem *absolutely* ahem..nothing to do with dat dream...i am just so innocent..muaha..but i like the pic...someone's gonna be oh so jealous...blekkk...

2ndly, i know im evil...but im realli happy and enjoying myself here back in Penang..no worries, no stress, no back stabbing, no jealousy, no gossips...its all fun fun fun...yes, u shud realli consider coming here..and leave everything behind...ok, am i evil or wat? hahaha...

I miss u btw..:P

Shin Sar said...

HOI!!! Enough of that 'AHEM' and 'JEALOUS' ok!!!!! But I am still jealous!!!!!!! Hrmffffff

HOI!!! Don't leave me alone in KL la!!! Don't ask me go Penang also (I know you didn't). I think I am doing well in KL. Cos I am not involve all those 'dramas'. I am living my own life with what I want in my life, and not being forced to accept things I don't like. After all, it's your life and your choice to accept what you want in your life.

Emm, too many 'life' in the above para. Not sure what I typed, but I hope you understand la.