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Can't seem to find the word I want for the title of this post. I feel so... pointless, hopeless, stuck, blunt... I can't find the exact word to explain how I'm feeling right now. Been thinking a lot quite lately. And it's all related to my studies, my future career.

This will bore you guys. But heck, i just want to express how I'm feeling right now.

Was chatting with pokok Chunyiun yesterday and started talking about studies and work. At times, I sort of regret taking up degree currently. Management and theoretical studies were never part of my interest. But people always say, without a degree how can you survive? I agree. Employers nowadays look at your qualification when they hire people. But hey, tonnes of people out there without a degree qualification made it big out there. So what if you have a degree? You still have to start from the bottom. And I somehow feel that to success in the working industry, one needs to be creative, to be able to face challenges, good talking skills. I seriously don't think I have any of those elements. I admit I have a bit of the brains, yeah, I get quite good results but hey, it's all memorizing. I doubt I'll ever put them to use in the future. Sigh.

It's quite difficult when you have a mum who thinks much differently than you. She wants you to go overseas, wants you to be successful so that she is proud of you. But I'm not the type of person who will strive to achieve success! I'm just an ordinary person who wants an ordinary and happy job with a stable income, that's all! I don't want to compete with other people. I don't want to be compared. I guess it's all about the fears in me. The lack of confidence. In the modern society, teamwork is very important. But I am an individualistic person I would say. I often prefer working on my own. But of course, if I can get along very well with a group, I will give out my 100% to the group. Many people often say I'm just too scared to try. I admit. I'm always scared. Fear of the future, fear of people, fear of myself, fear of failure, fear of talking, fear of anything and everything. Listening to what the lecturers said about the quality of employees the industry need, I lagi scared.

But no matter what, I have to make my decision. There are choices, and I have to choose the one that means the most to me. Sigh. God, help me. I'm 'stranded'. I seriously feel like it's the end of the world.

Anyway, parents went Cambodia few weeks ago and bought some 6 Nike shirts and 1 pants for me. Same design, different colours haha.


Life is so full of happiness and sorrows. I must learn to live happily each day.

.I hope I can win.

Long posting.

28th July 2007

Went out with Ching, Anju and Ria to Bangsar for brunch. The person who ask me not to wake up late ended up waking up late. They were suppose to go threading but ended up didn't so we just went for makan. Before we enter Nirvana (no we didn't die, it's a curry house), we were stopped by these 2 ladies from a slimming/beauty center. They started promoting this special card thingy they have which they only give 12 people today and we're so lucky bla bla bla. They were saying with RM29.90 you can enjoy RM600 worth of services, and we can make appointment before we go. I was a bit suspicious then but end up putting away the thought. They then write down our details and give us the promotion card. Another suspicious thing is they used whiteboard marker to write on the card which can be easily wiped off. And they asked for the RM29.90. WTF! All of us thought we can pay when we go to the place but they said no, must pay now. Thank god Anju sort of scolded them and they walked away. But I was so scared they'll scratch Ria's car as they saw us coming out from our car.

Lesson learned: Never believe all these unknown beauty/slimming centers.

Then, at 4pm ML, Szen, PK and I left for Batang Kali for a GBBM event. Got W.H.Y., Gary Yap, Nick Chung, Stella Chung and Danny One *lub*! We used the Bkt Beruntung way, luckily it was ML driving, if not I would have got lost in some jungle nearby. There's one part where the view was superb. On the left were vege farms and on the left were mountains and hills.


When we reach, we were quite early as the girl I deal with, Alycia wasn't there yet. So I called her and she suggest we go have early dinner nearby at Ligamas. So we went and had some makan at Restoran Chuang Kee. Just some random restaurant we found.

They have this dragon fruit juice. Never tried before so ordered 1. Nice :) Refreshing and sweet. We also had loh mee, kao yuk yee mee, fried fu chuk and fish paste. A diff style loh mee, so so only to me.


Coincidently Pei San was having dinner there as well with her family. So after dinner we went to the school together. Only half the chairs were filled at 7.30pm, I was quite disappointed at first. Then when the event began, more people came and it was damn happening after that. The teenagers there are crazy! They can whistle from the beginning of the show till the end and not feeling tired! And they group together and waved and cheered like nobody's business. Annoying but it definitely hype up the atmosphere. There was only one person I can't stand. Yellow-shirt girl. Curse u to death. Sakai.

.The Kay-eLLe clan.

First was W.H.Y., then Stella, then Nick, then Gary and lastly Danny *lub*! They sang 5 songs each. They were selling their albums at the event as well. Guess it's part of the charity for the association. Danny sang Yin Wei You Ai (DANNY'S VERSION) I think he's used to Daniel's version he sort of forgot his own song's tune :p Oops; Lian Ai Le; Love And Freedom; Wai Hor Xiong Tai Dor; and Siapa. He said 'Now, I want to speak, i count to 3, everybody keep quiet, 1,2,3' (Breeeeeeeeeeeet!) 'I said keep quiet... 1,2,3' (Breeeeeeeet) Not us ok, is those people there. 'Aiyo, tak faham ar? haha!' Cute la he *lub*.

I love this pic a lot. Don't know why.

After that there were autograph session. Gary and Danny. Album sales was erm... OKAYH lah. 4 of us bought an album each. ML and Szen wanted to get me 'something' which they thought I didn't know but I knew it since the beginning. ML and Szen, very thoughtful of you guys, thanks but no thanks. That 'someday' is two months away okayh. Actually I should be happy for that 'something', but somehow I felt angry. Don't ask me why. I don't know either. I nearly cried. I nearly stomped away. I tried snatching the paper away. Maybe it was becuz I knew about it. Danny's love and freedom chorus totally suit me at this moment. Argh, seriously I don't know what's wrong with me. When people don't treat me nice, I don't like it. When people treat me good, I don't like it either. WTF.

.The One That Brightens My Day & Night.

Many things are on my mind now. I think it's time for me to really cut down on my online time. I can basically sit in front of the computer for hours and hours without moving. Even though I'm not doing anything on my comp I can just sit down and stare at it. It has been an addiction. I'm wasting too much time doing nothing. I guess it's better to let go. To least expect anything. To least hope for anything. Currently still addicted to "Cry On My Shoulder". It's such a good song. I can just tear out listening to it. Another song that can make me cry is "Bu Xu Ku" by Meisim. Gosh, the title is Bu Xu Ku (Cannot Cry) but it makes me cry! :'( I wonder if I ever have the chance to hear Danny sing "Cry On My Shoulder" someday. :) Or perhaps Daniel. Or Kwok Fai. Or John. Bahh, let's not hope for the hopeless.

Anyway, guess what time I woke up today? Haha. 3pm oops. Been lacked of sleep the past week and finally replenished it hehe! Yes, I know I'm a pig.

The Person That Brightens My Day <3

Seriously, he's the only one that will brighten up my day when I'm feeling down... Hmm, everything happens just at the right time :) Well, of course I don't know him as friends, I don't chat with him. But sometimes, the things he did just makes me cheer up :) Cheeky him.

210707 - 988 Anniversary Concert :)

Went for SKY last episode premier just now at Izzi Pizza. I 'guong ming jing dai' WON it one, I never cari lubang to get it. Nothing much, all sit down, wait for the artists, watch, sign, eat, leave. I guess I expected too much from the last episode, it wasn't as what I expected it to be. But it was funny though :) And there was this young magician guy came and "entertain" us before the show started. -speechless-

"You look like my first love." (What a way to tackle girls.) But of course, it's not said to me lah.

~ So what if we took pics together? There's a full stop between us. :) ~

Thanks to everyone who has been so nice and helpful to me. Accompanying me when I needed someone, helping me when I need help, cheering me up when I am sad, sharing with me when I'm happy. I've learnt to be grateful to everybody. Each and every one of you means a lot to me. If one day I die (touch wood), please ask my mum for my diary, read about my thoughts and feelings in my life, and there'll be a thank you message to each and everyone of you who had left a footprint on my heart.

Hopeless, useless...

Randoms #13
Totally agree with Soursandy. Silence is virtue. Please think before you talk. Don't complain about other things or other people when you don't even realize that you're doing the same thing. Sigh, how I wish I can tell someone off without offending anybody.

Randoms #14
Why does some people's mouth have to be so big, so 'smelly' and so cruel? Please consider other people's feelings before you say something. Don't you realize that your words are actually hurting other people's feelings? Please don't do unto others what you don't want others to do unto you. When other people say like that to you, you get so angry. But when you say like that to other people, you just laugh thinking it's a joke that everybody can accept. F*ck off.

Randoms #15
The higher you climb, the harder you fall. Again, and again, I try to remind myself not to expect anything. Again and again, I didn't. Again and again, I get disappointed. I know, it's never possible. I seriously wonder if I'm ever someone special to anybody. "Spacial" maybe la. You gave me hope, and took it away from me. Expect the unexpected. Better still, DON'T expect ANYTHING. ANYTHING at all in EVERYTHING.

21/7 - Happy & sad. Frus and syiok. Hmm~

Falling for a stranger. D.E.A.D.
...If only...

[Phood] La La Chong, Subang Terminal 3

Seriously, temptation is always a SIN.
Evil you all for tempting me to try new phood.
Went to La La Chong for seafood @ Terminal 3, Subang with Da Da, Mund Mund, Xiang Xiang, Jian Jian and Mr. WHS.

Kangkung Belacan

Xiong Tong La-La *thumbsup*

Fried Mee Suah

Wet Creamy Butter Crab *thumbs thumbs up* Superb!

Salted Egg Crab - so so only. Prefer Foodland's in Kepong.

Fried Man Tou - Yummy but oily. I had two. It's as big as my fist :)

Overall it's good :) Go there by 7pm to avoid the crowd. Price is reasonable. Our meal was RM25 per person. Food is quick. Didn't have to wait long time for the food.

[Lyrics] Deutschland Sucht Den Superstar - Cry On My Shoulder

A song that I fell in love instantly. Thanks to rachteng for sending the song to me :)
This song is written by Dieter Bohlen for the Deutschland Sucht Den Superstar (similar to American Idol reality show) for the Top 3 winners of DSDS Season 1 in 2002. Champion Alexander Klaws, runner up Juliette Schoppmann, and second runner up Daniel something. Can't read it. It's in Dutch. This Daniel guy (Of all names =_=") is very the erm... sorry, no offence, gayish... But I like his voice very much.

Check out the clip. I think this is the lip-sync version. The one on the piano is Dieter Bohlen, the composer. From left: Daniel, Alexander and Juliette.




Cry On My Shoulder
Deutschland Sucht Den Superstar
Album: United
Composer: Dieter Bohlen

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you wait for love and you're alone
If you call your friends nobody's home

You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I'll show you there's a destiny
The best things in life they are free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone
Who cares for you
If you're feeling sad
Your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh, let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh, just call me and I'll make your day
When the nights are gettin' cold and blue
When the days are gettin' hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone
Who cares for you
If you're feeling sad
Your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone
Who cares for you
If you're feeling sad
Your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

What real love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What love can do
Love can do

Lack of ceratonine?

Ms. Karen said that anti-depressant medications contains high amount of ceratonine, which is also called the happy hormone. Ceratonine is also available in starchy food and chicken.

I don't know what's wrong with me these few days. Been getting moody over nothing. Is it that I'm lack of ceratonine? But the weird thing is, I get moody all of a sudden, and I can be happy in another minute. So, I think there's something wrong with my hormones. I guess it's the stress... coming from everywhere... and also Bibi. She was banged by a car... Now has a wound near her leg. :( She's not eating. Not drinking. It definitely is painful. I see tears in her eyes... :( Have been thinking a lot about my future for the past few days. Sigh, what am I going to do? I don't know. I'm so blunt. So empty inside me.

20072007

I didn't realize yesterday was a double match date until Mathias forwarded a message to me in the afternoon. Haha, cute. Don't know why but had the urge of fwding it to quite some number of people. When it was 20:07, it was triple match! 2007, 20072007 :) But this type of double, triple matches happen every year. 070707 lah, 080808 lah, 20072007 lah, 20082008 lah... Ciu...

I guess I'm just tired...
Emo-ing for no reason...
Leaving for good...
Expect the unexpected...

Review: KL - Ipoh - Taiping - Penang - Changlun - Penang - Ipoh - KL

Got a shock seeing my title? Haha. Yeap, that's all the places I went in 3 days. Went up north last weekend for D2's & KF's event.

13th July 2007 (Friday the 13th)

Left KL with AA, SS and YR at about 3pm. Headed straight to Ipoh as Daniel's event was at 6.30pm. Erm, nothing much. He sang 3 songs. The crowd was so so. But signing was not bad. 100 over people. However the sound system sucks to the max. The mic goes on and off. I went up stage to sign, somehow to other Pinkies he says thank you but say 'xie xie' to me. I felt weird. Hmm.

Then, of course, going to Ipoh without eating the bean sprout chicken is not considered going to Ipoh. So we head to Jalan Cowan for taugeh chicken koey teow. Thanks Lynne for the dinner. Yummy. :)

Braised Chicken Feet

Bean Sprout

Koey Teow soup (very small bowl only, not enough for me ler)

The tender juicy chicken. Yum yum.

Mixed chicken gizzards, intestines and liver. Yum. My fave gizzards :)

The secret? Refresh the chicken in cold water straight away cooking.

Then, we left Ipoh and continued our journey. We decided to stop by Taiping to yum cha with Szen and SS's parents. Haha. So we went to this hawker place call Siang Malam. We had roti kukus and roti bakar. The steamed bread was very nice!

Teh c di kopi (Teh 'C' with few drops of coffee) Cute huh?

My fave shot of all. Nasi Lemak Assam Prawn. It was so so. Maybe because it was cold.

After that, we continued our journey to Penang! Reach Penang about 12 plus, went straight to the room and clean up then sleep. So tired.

14th July 2007

Woke up at 9am, IH brought us for breakfast at Song River.

Bak Kut Teh :) First time I see pork balls in BKT.

Duck duck. Quack quack.

Taufu with leek.

Fried French Bean.

Assam Prawn.

After our 'brunch', we head to Changlun. There's a place called 'Malau' in Kedah, so cute! On the way to Kedah, both sides of the road are all paddy fields. Lush greens. Beautiful. First we stop by at Karen jie jie's husband's bus company at CTC near Bkt Kayu Hitam. Then, we head to IH's company - KMC to visit the coldroom. It's a room to keep the frozen fishes. The room is huge! As big as a factory! And it's 14C inside. Stand inside for 5 minutes and you'll start to freeze.

Then we head back to Changlun for curry mee. Heard it's famous. Daniel was there too. Recording a program for Astro Channel 35.

Spot Daniel :)

Curry mee. I find it so so only. No cockles. And not thick enough. For me lah.

After that, we head to C-Mart for Daniel's event which was just 5 minutes walk from the curry mee place. Crowd was okay. Signing was okay too. He said xie xie to me again =_=" Then, me and SS rush back to Penang to attend Kwok Fai's promo in Queensbay and Juru. Haha, it was fun! Fai siu oh fai siu. I call Kwok Fai fai siu one. Hehe!


Then, we went for supper at I don't know where and headed back to the hotel. The gang from Alor Setar arrived at the same time. After washing up, few of us went to the mamak downstairs for supper (again). The chicken i-dont-know-what is superb! :) Then, we witnessed a thousands of motorcycle convoy passed by. Scary. Really scary. If you were to cross the road at that time, you'll be banged over by thousands of motorcycles. :p


15th July 2007


The 4 of us woke up and get ready to check out cuz we had to rush to Ipoh. Danny Danny Danny! Haha! Had breakfast with the others (dim sum) then we separated our ways. It was a rainy day, so the weather is so cold! Plus the weird thing was, all the way from Penang to Rawang, the tip of the hills are so misty. So beautiful! Went to Ipoh for the GCMA promo. The place was crowded! Can't even find a parking but parked illegally :p Luckily they didn't announce my car number plate through the mall and say I blocked the road :p I'm so happy to see him :) I think he's quite happy to see us too :) He mentioned "KL friends" again :) And when he was in the van, he leaned forward to wave to us :) Thanks for making my day :)

SS spotted a rainbow when we were near Rawang. Lovely :)

Can you see the rainbow? I edited the contrast of the pic. Somewhere over the rainbow...

I know, I know. This posting is more about phood and sceneries. Haha. Nice mah. Takkan everytime show pics of celebs only meh? Oh swt.

Good night.

Transformer

Finally I watched Transformers on Monday.
Two words - Nerve-wrecking!
I went and watch with my two SS friends. 3 of us sat on the chair with our feet on the chair as well. It was so gan-jiong that I kept grabbing the side of my pants. And the worst thing was, I drank too much water it made me wanted to pee halfway throughout the show. But I can't leave to go to the toilet!
Seriously, the show is awesome. Fantastic. I so want to watch again. And I want the soundtrack. And the DVD!
I like bumblebee. He's so nice :)

- No sacrifice, no victory -
;)

[Lyrics] Rascal Flatts - My Wish

A country song I fell in love with instantly. Very meaningful. You can dedicate it to all your friends.

Rascal Flatts - My Wish

I hope the days come easy and the moments pass slow
And each road leads you where you want to go
And if you’re faced with the choice and you have to choose
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you
And if one door opens to another door closed
I hope you keep on walkin’ ‘til you find the window
If it’s cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything

Chorus

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

I hope you never look back but you never forget
All the ones who love you
And the place you left
I hope you always forgive and you never regret
And you help somebody every chance you get
Oh, you find God’s grace in every mistake
And always give more than you take
But more than anything, yeah more than anything

Chorus x2

My wish for you
Is that this life becomes all that you want it to
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small
You never need to carry more than you can hold
And while you’re out there gettin’ where you’re gettin’ to
I hope you know somebody loves you
And wants the same things too
Yeah, this is my wish

This is my wish
I hope you know somebody loves you
May all your dreams stay big 

Review: Terengganu & Kota Bahru

So sorry for the lack of updates, my faithful readers :)
Been busy for the past two weeks.

Let me just review on my Terengganu and Kelantan trip 2 weeks ago. I followed ML, IH, AA and Julielai up east on 6th July, for Daniel's Terengganu and Kelantan promo. Was previously in a serious dilemma of going or not, and I've finally decided to go. And I did not regret it :)

Started our journey at 10 plus AM, had dim sum @ Kuchai Entrepreneurs Park and off we went. In Julie's Jazzie, my dream car. We took about 6 hours to reach KT. Before that, we stopped at Rantau Abang for our 'lunch'. One fish, one tomyam soup, one deep fried sotong (more like deep fried batter actually), one mixed vege and fried omelette.


On the way to KT, there were many stalls on the road side selling their famous Keropok Lekor. And also stalls selling Air Nila or something. Can't remember the name. I think is coconut water.

Then, we head towards KT and checked in at Ming Star hotel, a very new hotel at KT. Erm, it looks more like a lodge to me, but the room is nice :) RM88 nett with 2 breakfast, what do you expect? Their operation manager Mr Alister was kind enough to direct us to the school Daniel is performing. After checking in we hurried to the school for Daniel's sound check. Then back to the hotel to wash up and charge camera batteries. Nothing much to talk about after that. Oh yeah, it was Julie Lai's birthday on 7th, so 12am sharp, we surprised her with 3 slices of cakes at the car park after we had our supper. She was so shocked! Great to see that :)

The next day, we sent AA to the bus station cuz she had to rush back to KL. I felt so uneasy walking around, 3 of us were wearing shorts and none of the people in KT wears shorts. I felt like everybody was staring at us. Then off we went to KB. Since we had extra free time, we decided to go Tasik Kenyir before going to KB since we have nothing to do in KB. And, it was an unforgettable trip :)


Lake Kenyir is very remote. You have to drive quite some time, staring at many many green trees and hills before you reach the lake. But lake is awesome. We took the RM150 boat package that goes to 3 places - Saok Waterfall, Herbs Garden and Fish Sanctuary. The boat driver was a very adventurous guy and very knowledgeable. He asked us to climb high up the waterfall and also gave us the chance to climb the tree trunk in the middle of the lake! That was so cool! But scary because inside the lake there's actually a lot of piranha's! And clumsy me fell on my butt at the waterfall. Luckily I didn't drop into the lake. At the herbs garden we were introduced to many herbs and plants including Tongkat Ali, Kacip Fatimah, Asam something which is a leaf but you eat it raw and it taste like assam and pomelo! There are chalets built beside the lake, RM1000 plus for one night!


For more pics of our Kenyir Lake expedition, click here

Then, we head to KB. There are a lot of palm trees on the way to KB. Greeneries everywhere.


And we were all quite surprised that KB is actually so developed. Out of our expectation. At least they have a mall. We went to KB Mall to get some stuff and end up having our early dinner there. Thai food. Mango Kerabu & Thai Laksa. Yummeh. We saw Daniel's promo info pasted at the entrance of a souvenir shop but they put Daniel's album name as "Mei You Chuo" (No Mistake) =_=" Bang wall.

We checked in at Grand Riverview hotel after that. Just located next to Sungai Kelantan. Cool.

After the event, we went for supper near the Thai border at a restaurant called Chiangmai Restaurant. The organizers ordered the dish. This dish came first, upon looking at it, nothing special. But guess what it is?


Bingo! Bees, Crickets and Larvae. I'm serious! No joke! Surprising I had the courage to eat it. The bees and crickets were okay, crunchy, no taste actually. But I didn't really like the white colour ones which are the larvae I think.

The next day we check out 10 plus and left for home. So fast, 3 days gone. I wish I have the money, the time, the ability to go travelling and have fun like that everytime. Sigh. We tried to find the shortest route to go back to KL and decided to use the Gua Musang way, detour to Cameron and back to Simpang Pulai highway. I guess everybody thinks we're crazy but we stopped at Camerons and bought some vege and had our lunch there at Ngow Kee, recommended by the vege stall owner. Yummeh. It was freaking cold. It was my first time seeing edible raw corn. Haha! Cute.

That's about all. We left for KL after our 'lunch' at like 4pm and reached KL about 7pm. Very interesting trip for me indeed. I enjoyed myself. ;)