Sudden emo...

Argh... I'm so tensed! 2 assignments, 3 or 4 assessments coming, 1 food promotion, practical classes every week, research on every subject, TIS... I really will faint soon weh!

Slept at 4am yesterday, did my IT report... padan muka, people all passed up on Monday but I was too lazy to do. Now torture ownself and burn midnight oil. Was so sleepy in class today, Mr Prakash did not come to class today (*!&#$&)!(*, i could have slept 4 more hours... Took this photo before pastry class today.

L to R: Nicole, Ivy, Fiona, Amanda, Eve (Can't open our eyes properly cuz of the sun :D)

Made Alsatienne Tart (apple tart with custard)... Turned out good, only the short crust was half cooked. I helped Chef take the ingredients for her to demo, went to main kitchen to take eggs, milk and cream, came back, someone took the packet i measured! Geramnya!!!! Then, I wiped a mixing bowl clean and put on my station while i go take my ingredients, some idiot go take my mixing bowl!!!! Lagi geram!!! I'm just so annoyed with some of them. They're just sooooooooo lazy, when we're out of milk/eggs, they'll just wait for other people to go to the main kitchen and take... No leg to walk ar? Or no eyes to see? Chef Karam test-made some muffins for his pastry class, SOME people never ask permission and go and eat the muffins! WTH!

Up: The big tart, Bottom: The Mini 'Apple Egg Tart'

Stayed till 7pm at college for junior's dinner service. Me and Fiona one table. Our server was Annie (Fiona's friend), leng lui oh! And work quite fast *thumbsup*

My main course for dinner: Paupiette Fish with Zucchini Risotto served with American Sauce

Went for supper with LCY and TML at the mamak outside ML's house. Had a fried chicken. Called WWT on the way back, instead of talking with WWT, we talked to her leng chai daddy and leng lui mummy pulak >.<" WWT, 2a's for trials and you'll get a meal in jogoya k? Samore rm50 for every A for pmr! Go go go!!! And Taiwan!!!

Went home, online, chatted with few friends. Thanks to unreasonable assumptions, stupid thoughts and really crazy rumours, it just feds me up la. I'm just so irritated by what was being said. It's other people's personal life la, just leave it as it is ok? Stop assuming things and make it sound like it's freaking real! Arghhhhh!

Where are the people who understands me? Where are the people who are willing to talk to me? Where are the people who can give me a hug by just looking at me and knowing that I need one? Where are the people who loves me for who I am, not for what they can gain from me? Well, I'm just a nobody... Whaddya expect, eve? Sighz...

Kai ye's going to US on Aug 1st... Don't even have a chance to see him before he leaves... Kaima, kaiye I miss you all!!! I really really miss both of you!

Ah Kor (WHR) who's in UK studying... Long time never see you online dee lah... how are you? I miss you!

Uncle Nessie, I think of you whenever I eat the chocolate you gave me... Come back M'sia!!! Sobz!

And many many more people that I miss... I miss u all vewy vewy muchie!!! Aihz, told ya i'm sudden emo...

Eventful or Eventless?

Monday - 9.30am - 6pm class... Had dinner at grandparents' house...

Tuesday - 11am - 5.30pm class...

Wednesday - 9am - 1.30pm class... Stayed back at library to do French and Kitchen... Went Shabu Shabu for dinner with parents... yummy! Szen asked to go for dinner at Kim Gary but it was too last minute so i couldn't go.

Thursday - 9am - 4pm class... Went to SS2 pasar malam with Chunyiun and Soursand... Wanted to eat assam laksa but finished *sobz* then it was a journey of makan, makan and continue makan... First, lok lok (steamboat where the items are stringed together on a satay stick and you dip into a pot of hot stock at the van), next was sugar cane, keropok lekor, peanut kuih, so many more things to eat but so little space (in the stomach >.<) Next week, we'll continue with char kueh kak, mua chi, uncle bob fried chicken...

Friday - 11am - 4pm class... Amanda and Fifi had lunch in the restaurant, so i ta pao food makan in class... For Applied Science class we were separated into two groups to do two diff case studies, disappointed, no one (except a few) bother to discuss properly, all making really unappropriate remarks... Well, i understand sometimes jokes are fun, but don't overdo it, it will become irritating, sigh, maybe i'm just too serious. Stayed back alone to see how group 1 and group 3 do their practical. Chef Chong was there too :D By just seeing them doing it makes me scared. There's just so much for me to improve on. I realize my product knowledge is totally ZERO. Time organization, managing the commis, managing myself... Stress betul... The students in group 2 all stayed to observe too. Kesian Terence, ter-cut his hand, he said he can't feel the pain but his whole hand was numb. Haha, ever tried having 3 plasters on your hand?

I left earlier and went to Sunway Pyramid for Kwok Fai's mini musical showcase. Royce from My FM was the emcee. So many aherm, pinkies were there. Me, chunyiun, teng, mei ling, fish, fanny, sandy, szen, jovee, xzendra. Even Soh Ling was there. The thing started at 9pm, KF came out wearing the fan club tee *thumbsup* and he sang a whole bunch of songs.. He started of by playing the chorus of Believe In Love on the piano which he only learned a week ago, then sang a faster version of Believe in love *nice* and other songs such as Yong Qi, Ni Bu Zai, A Simple Song, Time After Time, Kau Ilhamku, Ai Hen Jian Dan, Fen Xiang, Qing Fei De Yi and a whole lot more be it english, mandarin, canto or malay! His interaction with the fans was superb, but only the few of us gila gila screaming and shouting. He sang the oldie 'you are so beautiful to me' and we replied him 'thank u thank u', he laughed. He said when he's singing, don't shout 'wo ai ni' cuz he will forget his lyrics. He's so cute laaaa! Honestly speaking, I enjoy this more than the previous musical showcase I went >.< (i guess it's the interaction gua and the choice of songs were fantastic!!!) KF went for his musical but he never came for this. Well, i guess he's busy and to avoid any misunderstandings guah. Then we went Kim Gary for supper! Had French Toast and my fave Tea in HK style :D

Saturday - Slept at 3am woke up at 6.40am to send CY to pudu station. Came back home, cannot sleep anymore. Nobody at the forum until 9am, matchbox ask me to translate article. Translated 1 and went to cut my hair. So difficult to change hair style la.. I'm bored with straight hair already but i don't want to perm it >.<" In the end just cut some fringe and nipiskan my thick wavy hair. Went and ta pao chicken rice and went home to eat. Wanted to watch 'I Not Stupid 2' but err unsuccessful :p Slept from 3pm to 7pm and went for dinner at OUG. Went and find my cute little Angeli at Faber Ria. She can pronounce 'flower', 'fish', 'mummy', 'yi ma (aunty)', 'jie jie', 'kakak', 'pink' and a lot more!!! She's just so adorable. Daniel is in penang for some event at his former school SMK Han Chiang. Chun said he sang Peng You =( He's evil.

I think i'm used to going out on weekends, this weekend no events feel really weird. Kwok Fai had an event at sunway pyramid today, was tempted to go but better not.. Have to kidnap people out one >.<"

伤心极了

现在已经是开学第三个星期了。真的没有心情去读书。在班里发白日梦，想东想西。没什么读到书，刚给妈妈讲了一顿。算了，已经没有events了吧。

715，星期六去了Plaza Low Yat户外广场看<新生报到拉阔演唱会>，有李吉汉，林宇中，陈威全，陈仁丰，曾爱玲，Banu，Muffin，Newz等等。最重要当然是去支持Daniel啦。那晚他很专注于台上所有的表演，也没什么与我们互动，但我明白，这是一场有不同歌手的show,他不想我们太多于专注在他一个人的身上。有人上台送花给他，他哭了。因为看见有那么多人支持他。

716，Hits1总决赛终于来了。七早八早一个两个都拿着手提电话投票，投票，投票个不停。到了下午，看到我们有机会赢了！晚上到Stadium Negara去看表演，全8首歌都蛮好的。现场他跟着live band唱mimpi... 唱得非常非常棒！重要的时刻来临了，低下头，祈祷mimpi会赢，可是输了，真的是太太太太失望了。我们全用尽了百多块，甚至千多块来投，最后却什么都拿不到。之后在stadium后面遇见他，他很开朗地安慰大家不要伤心，再接再励。看到他这样，我更想哭。不能，我一定要忍。忍到他走了为止，我顶不顺了，终于哭了出来。他在他的部落格里也写下了他的感言，让我看了又哭一场，好感动噢。。。从未见过他写那么感动的话。我看我连续几天都会哭，头脑不停地想回那天的成绩。

没心情写了。。。下次再继续吧。晚安。

She's The Only One

If a person sings/dedicates these four songs to you, what's the first thing that crosses your mind?

1. Better Man
2. Belaian Jiwa
3. You're Beautiful
4. Can't Take My Eyes Off You

He said he can't be a superman, but he'll be a better man. He said that she's the only one. Feel heartache? Of course not.. Why should i? I'm just curious who she is... Just hope and pray he found the right one =)

Started to fall sick on Sunday morning. I guess it's the weather. Too hot. And walked into air con rooms while sweating. Flu, cough, soar throat, headache. Peeps, the weather is terrible nowadays... Please drink more water to prevent soar throat.

Seriously, how do you know if the person you like is likeable? Some people said that, if he's the right one, you can see the future for the both of you. Pak toh-ing, getting married, having a family... Is it true?

Since young, i'm always a dreamer. I always imagine a lot of things, imagine my future, my friends, my work, my life. I dream of all the best things i can have in life. I dream that, if i open a cafe, how would i manage it. I dream of when i'm married (if i ever get to), how would i want my life to be. Haha, you can say that i'm a very 'traditional' thinker... I want to be married to a guy who has an average income to support the whole family(better if he's rich la hehe), i would love to have 2 kids - 1 girl & 1 boy, be a part time worker so that i can spend time with my family, to have time to cook for my family. Wah, mimpi-lah... How can life be so perfect? Life is a very unpredictable thingy. People always said 'marriage is an eye-opener'. What if the guy you love changed drastically after being married? What if both of you can't earn enough? What if both of you end up not having any kids? What if there's a third party in between? Hey, you all might be saying 'choi! touch wood!' but these are the things happening to some people's marriages now right? Nobody predicted all these yet it happened. Some people choose to separate, but some can't due to circumstances...

Argh... life's so unfair...

Tired!

Hectic hectic hectic... The past two weeks had been hectic... First, we had dance practises, discussions, arrangements, meetings for Daniel's birthday bash. I went out everyday to shop for stuff, meet up with them... And of course, i had to spend time doing my report, but i'm still not done with it =P

On 30th June itself, I went and do my hair - braids, never that it occur to me that i want to participate in best hairdo.. I just thought that it suits the 'Perfect Man' dance. As Shin Sar was free during that week too, we met up with each other 9 days in a row to do everything together... Thanks Sar, i had a great time :D We told each other not to have high expectations towards the event and also him because he might not even like the party at all.

Sony BMG presented 'SEA's most promising chinese artist award' to him.. All of us were so so proud of him. Overall, the event was really fun, despite the LOUSY PA system, some mistakes here and there and rush of time. The most fun part was the Daniel's impersonation contest.. Michelle did really great, and Ryan too! Daniel laughed non stop. During dinner, he walked to every table, everybody gave him presents and everybody started to give him a hug.. Kesian, kena 'pok mong' kau kau. But it's his birthday, that's the way he should thank everybody. I didn't get him anything because no point la hehe.

I was disappointed in the chillex dance though (well, i'm in it) It could have been better but it was so messy, some forgot their steps and arghhh! I wonder what Daniel think about our dance. I'm so disappointed in myself. I shall retire from it, get chillex juniors to dance in the future :D Daniel involved in the games and also did some emcee-ing. Surprisingly i won the best hairdo (thanks aunty quiny and uncle frankie) and I was delighted with the way Daniel announced. (Well, if being intro like that, who won't be happy wor? :D)

• "I think she spent a lot of time doing her hair. She's very busy tonight, and her name is same as my car... SEVVY!"

Uncle Rick say i bowed 12 times on stage =_="

College started on monday. This term the time table still ok... Not very packed but not flexible too. Sobz.. The feeling of giving up reappear... I'm so lazy to go back to college... I feel stressed, scared... I prefer working than studying... Still trying to figure out whether to continue degree or not... Sigh!!! I am afraid i cannot handle it. This term's kitchen class it's up to our knowledge and creativity... Gosh... Mati oh...

Yesterday Ms Karen's class was cancelled, so we had 4 & 1/2 hours break. Fiona, Amanda and I went to Sunway Pyramid to watch 'Just My Luck' starring Lindsay Lohan and Chris Pine. It was really nice, Chris Pine is so good looking, his eyes are so blue. And the songs by McFly are very nice too! I wonder if anyone's luck will be that bad or that good or not :D Watch the movie to know what am i talking about. Sometimes when i watch this kinda movie, I wonder if the storyline will happen in real life or not... Will your luck turn upside down with just a kiss? Will a girl be able to meet such good looking and nice guy? Haha, all i can say is - MIMPI...