Jammed

Life has been pretty dull... besides working it's still working... of course, nonetheless onlining... hahaha... i'm just so lazy to do other things.

Previously I was in garde manger, handling cold dishes. A week ago there was a rotate in the sections. Now i'm in the entremetier side. Handling pastas and vegetables. The tasks are pretty simple, but it requires coordination from ur mind and ur hands. It requires control, control of the fire. Control of different things at the same time.

So what's up with me? Got a 2 days break for raya last month, being in this line, 2 days of rest means so much. Although I didn't stay put at home that 2 days :p Had a karaoke session with a bunch of friends, yum cha on a cool night. Although the day wasn't at all perfect, but it was ok. Tried to act smart trying to be a good advisor, which failed outrageously. The next day spent some quality time with friends whom I seldom meet nowadays. Had a very simple birthday this year... nothing much to report about, all I wanna say is, I'm really, really glad to have friends like you all. Thanks for the presents, thanks for the cakes and homemade banofee pie (my first time eating it ok!)

My mind is pretty jammed up right now. Jammed with the problem of human relations. Human minds are so unpredictable. You don't know what they're thinking. What's worse is when you cannot predict what they say is actually what they mean it or they're just saying it to please you. You don't know whether they treat you good is because they pity you, and behind you they talk all bad about you. You feel so bloody heart pain when they say some stupid thing about you and tell you just joking when they actually mean it. Well, I know it's their mouth and I shouldn't be bothered, but it's just suffering. You don't even know to treat them as a 'friend' or not. To share with them how's your day or not. You wonder if you put all your heart into the friendship and they take it for granted or not. Yes, it's bothering me. ANd it's bothering me a lot. I hope I have an answer. But I guess, the mystery will stay unsolved forever.

Going on a short holiday this weekend. So looking forward to it. It's gonna be a good weekend, I'm sure! I miss my floor measuring days. I miss all my true friends. You know who you are :)