Light My Way

Should I celebrate or what? Hoho, it's been a full year. Yes, 365 days gone like the wind. Poof! A year of what? A year being jobless! A year enjoying my life. A year which I took time off, supposing to do things that I want to do, but what have I done? Nothing, full stop. I'm kinda regretting now. Not on the job part, but not doing the things that I thought I should do. Sigh, useless isn't it? I should have cook everything until my stove gets rusty, I should have gone backpacking or travelling, I should have compiled the information that I needed, or perhaps, I should have WORKED?!?

WTF.

Sometimes I really feel damn annoyed on myself. I never seem to have contributed anything positive. Time management is one thing I really need to improve on. I guess I don't have it at all in the first place.

WTF.

One day I was emo-ing and SS asked me not to push myself too hard. Think think think, I'm not even pushing in the first place! I love what I'm doing, but just that it brings harm financially.

WTF.

I've thought of trying out wedding planner. Not forgetting being a part of the culinary world. I also considered the entertainment line. Or else home catering. I have thought of every single job that I think my ability permits me to do. Spinning round and round, what suits me? And I suit what? Tough tough question. I always scared that what I like might not be what I can do.

WTF.

I have so many undone tasks all piled up in front of me. (But you're not working!) Hmm, put it in this way whereby it's tasks I enjoy doing yet without any income. I have few phood blogs delayed, to help out with Project Home, do some writing etc. I just realize it and it's due tomorrow!

WTF.

I'm having super complicated feelings now. To the extend that I don't know what am I feeling. Thinking too much, expecting too much, imagining too much.

WTF.

SPCA Jumble Sale 01/03/09

Last Sunday, I was asked to help out at the SPCA (Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals) Jumble Sale by SooHui. Thinking that I've never been there, and it's kinda meaningful to go help out so I went ahead. San zou lao lao woke up at 6am to meet them at Kepong and off we go to SPCA located in Ampang.

SPCA Selangor is an animal welfare organisation based in Ampang Jaya, Selangor. The aim of the SPCA is to protect defenseless animals and to alleviate their suffering. We receive more than 700 unwanted, homeless or abused animals every month. We provide an adoption program, investigation of cruelty reports, humane education, assistance to community animal caregivers and run a dedicated, low-cost spay/ neuter clinic. We also lobby the Government and local municipals for humane treatment of animals and harsher penalities for perpetrators of crimes against animals. Founded in 1958, SPCA is a well-respected and trusted Non-Profit Organisation. Over the years, the organisation has gained tremendous goodwill, recognition and support from animal lovers all over Malaysia. (Source: SPCA website)

To be honest, I feel uneasy being there. Cuz of the smell of dog's poo and pee. But, heck, what do I expect? There's like hundreds of dogs and cats living there. Insufficient 'home' for these abandoned or abused animals. There are even some known as 'Last Chance Dogs' up for adoption, I guess they're too old to live, and if no one adopts them, they will be ... *breath in* euthanized.





The jumble sale funds will be used for the organization's expenses I suppose. The items are all old/unwanted stuff that people dispose. Hmm, now I know where to give all my old clothes away. At least it help out the animals.





I believe it's all of our duty to help these poor animals. I mean, why go for expensive and option for IMPORTED breeds? Help out SPCA's dogs. They are as cute as you can get. Or else, recycle your old but usable junks to them for the jumble sale. Not only for the sale, but you can also donate/contribute items that the organization need such as office stationeries, dog/cat food etc. If not, volunteer at the organization. Better still, ADOPT one! Colleges/schools can also sponsor a cage for only RM500 for 3 months.



You can check out the jumble sale which will be held every 2 or 3 months I heard. There will be books, shoes, clothes, bags, toys, household items etc which I see is in good condition. The only thing is, I think that SPCA must improve on the notification of the jumble sale date. I only see a banner hanging outside saying there will be a jumble sale on what date and what time. Don't seem to see/hear news about it in the media. Or maybe it's just me who didn't read about it lah.

Anyway, a good experience. But make me miss Bibi even more. I wish I could adopt one. Sigh!

Adopt me!

[Lyrics] Fish Leong 梁静茹 - Mei You Ru Guo 没有如果

Current fave. Love the line
"世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死, 而是我就站在你面前, 你却不知道我爱你."
(The longest distance in the world is not life and death, but it's when I stand in front of you, yet you don't know that I love you)

Credits: Malaysian Chinese Albums

没有如果 Mei You Ru Guo
Fish Leong 梁静茹
Album: 静茹&情歌 别再为他流泪 Fall In Love & Songs

* 如果我说 爱我没有如果
*Ru guo wo shuo ai wo mei you ru guo
错过就过 你是不是会难过
Cuo guo jiu guo ni shi bu shi hui nan guo
若如果拿来当借口
Ruo ru guo na lai dang jie kou
那爱是不是有一点弱
Na ai shi bu shi you yi dian ruo

如果我说 爱我没有如果
Ru guo wo shuo ai wo mei you ru guo
真的爱我就放手一搏
Zhen de ai wo jiu fang shou yi bo
还想什么 还怕什么
Hai xiang shen me hai pa shen me
快牵起我的手
Kuai qian qi wo de shou

有人说
You ren shuo
世界上最遥远的距离不是生与死
Shi jie shang zui yao yuan de ju li bu shi sheng yu si
而是我就站在你面前
Er shi wo jiu zhan zai ni mian qian
你却不知道我爱你
Ni que bu zhi dao wo ai ni

** 我常说
Wo chang shuo
如果人类连爱一个人都被自己绑住
Ru guo ren lei lian ai yi ge ren dou bei zi ji bang zhu
那世界末日已来到
Na shi jie mo ri yi lai dao
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天
Bu xu yao deng dao di qiu hui mie diao de na tian

Repeat *

如果如果
Ru guo ru guo
如果如果如果最后变成如果
Ru guo ru guo ru guo zui hou bian cheng ru guo
我也不能接受
Wo ye bu neng jie shou
错过错过
Cuo guo cuo guo
错过错过错过我为你更难过
Cuo guo cuo guo cuo guo wo wei ni geng nan guo
不会一错再错
Bu hui yi cuo zai cuo

Repeat **

别怕太快了 别怕失去我
Bie pa tai kuai le, bie pa shi qu wo

Repeat *

快牵起我的手
Kuai qian qi wo de shou

Repeat * x3

如果我说 爱我没有如果
Ru guo wo shuo, ai wo mei you ru guo

Iswak 2: The End

ISWAK2 made me kill a lot of trees. Especially the last episode.
Yeah, call me a slow-mo. I just finished watching.
The last episode is so, so, so, so, the kns which makes people cry non stop.
I seriously cried non stop, with a blocked nose, bloated eyes and liters of tears.
One down, few more dramas to go. I feel so guilty for keeping these dramas for so long because they belonged to my friends. Hehe. Oopsie.

Hmm, at least these dramas keep my mind from thinking all kinds of craps.
Again, all sorts of 'i think', 'if' and 'what if' questions bloom like mushrooms after the rain.
I wonder why are we are so 'creative' when it comes to all these bullsh*ts and not during brainstorming sessions.
Curiosity kills. It's intolerant. Yet it's unavoidable. Comparisons too.
I just don't know why I have all these feelings of hatred inside of me.
Ok, hatred is too strong to be used. Dislike? Uncomfortable? Annoyed?
Or perhaps, it's jealousy?
I don't know.
I underestimated the varieties of human behavior, personality and attitude in this world.
Hmm, I don't have to compare the world. Just compare the range of KL is enough.
I guess I put too much hope in others to be as good normal as me.
How interesting life is.
And I'm sure, more to come.

Tor+ is *lub*

I seriously don't know how or why I would fall so deeply for a guy like him. But, he just amuses me. His fingers running on the piano keys like he's born knowing how to play. Well, he started playing since three, what do you expect? :D

Who am I talking about? Tor+!!! *wub wub wub* My new idol. No, I still love Danny with all my heart. But I've always like artistes who plays the piano. And Tor+ is the best I've known so far. I only knew about him last year, when he won the MTV Asia Awards 2008 Fave Thai Artiste, and when Danell went over to Bangkok to interview him. Then, just recently I saw his video clips, and oh gosh, I am so in lurve with 'rak ter'!



So last week he was over here for his album promo. (Yeah this blog post is kinda delayed) Yippee! Unfortunately it was a promo for his Malaysia Edition of "Piano & I" and not his latest album :( I heard his latest album Munk? online, and it's really a great album!


So coincidentally, as Tor+ is from Sony Music, Danell decided to venture into hosting and became Tor's promo emcee! 2 in one hehe!



Ok, people must be wondering why is there a plus sign on his name right? Well, the plus sign is an intonation, so it's actually pronounced as the 2nd sound in Chinese. So cute! *wub* Rupa rupanya his dad is a Chinese! He speaks a little Mandarin, and is learning at the moment. And he has a Chinese name! Lol! 马盛甲 *wub wub*

Is he looking at me?? Is he? :p

Oklah, he's just my current craze at the moment. Kinda regret never join the game at his promo that day. I knew all the answers. I can even sing almost the whole song of rak ter dy. Hehe! SS-nya. He's just fantastic lah. Give him some keynotes and he can compose a whole song out of it. And his English is near perfect :) Too bad he says he likes girl who don't know music at all :( Can I pretend not to? Lol! And he's so shy! But his smile is charming! Especially when he smiles timidly :p

Ok, I'm praising him too much. But Tor+ = LOVE. He's fantastic. Hope he comes to Malaysia soon. Super super soon.

His Malaysia Edition: Piano & I. Piano & I is actually his first solo album. It's all instrumental songs with the piano (duh). With three bonus tracks.