I don't know what title to put...
Life has been going pretty okay so far. Everyday wake up, work, eat, work, go home, online, sleep. The same routine goes on and on. I would say I'm performing okay in pastry. Making breads, churning ice creams, making chocolate macaroons, some cakes, crepes and bavarois. Fuh, not easy but I'm learning day by day. Learn and learn and learn. Mistakes do happen, and what I need to learn is how to alter towards perfection (quote someone), well, nothing is perfect but at least it's going that way.
Aunt called in the midnight 3 days ago saying both her kids were admitted to the hospital suspecting influenza A. They were kept in the ICU. Blood sample were taken but results only will be out the next day. My god, terrified. The youngest one is not even 1 year old. Cried the whole night wondering what will happen. Read the newspaper about kids died due to h1n1. Argh, that's shitty! Dreaded the hours until evening and aunt smsed to say result was negative. Thank the lord. Quote someone, negative doesn't always mean something bad :) But they weren't allowed to leave the hospital just yet. Went and visit them on the 3rd day. The elder one is getting much better, already without the drip and jumping around. She said she likes the hospital bed =_=" cuz can use the remote to control up and down, front and back. The baby's lung is not too good. Kept crying when she sees the doctor or nurse. Aunt sms-ed me saying just after I left the doctor came and insert a 6-inch tube into her nose down her throat to suck out the phlegm. Oh my god, I couldn't imagine if I were there to see it.
Parents are away for 10 days for holiday in China with grandma and relatives. I seriously respect working mothers who can still maintain the house so clean and tidy, what's more including washing and ironing clothes. Respect.
Money not enough. Everything around me is seductive. Lomo, fish eye, slr lens, iphone, new laptop, nike, lumix zr3, chef's knife, and I need new pants!
I need a holiday. And now, I need some sleep. Tired. Night.
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Friday, April 23, 2010
Monday, April 05, 2010
女生
对很多男生来说，女生只能用‘复杂’两个字来形容。
过度敏感，不够信任，爱耍脾气，野蛮，任性，不懂她们在想什么等等的。
对，我不否认的确有些女生是酱的，我也不明白这点。
可是我觉得男生也有同样的态度啊。
女生一直渴望的都是有安全感，有被爱护的感觉，
男生可以不懂女生在想什么，女生也一样啊。
男生天生自我中心很强，当男生脸色不好，问他们什么事时，却一句话都不说。
男生也很犹豫的，一时对你好，无端端就冷淡了。
也许男生和女生的爱情观不一样吧，所以要求的也很自然的有差别。
得到的也许不是所要求的。
要求的可能永远得不到。
真不明白你在想什么，可以告诉我吗？
～你是好人，也是个坏人～
过度敏感，不够信任，爱耍脾气，野蛮，任性，不懂她们在想什么等等的。
对，我不否认的确有些女生是酱的，我也不明白这点。
可是我觉得男生也有同样的态度啊。
女生一直渴望的都是有安全感，有被爱护的感觉，
男生可以不懂女生在想什么，女生也一样啊。
男生天生自我中心很强，当男生脸色不好，问他们什么事时，却一句话都不说。
男生也很犹豫的，一时对你好，无端端就冷淡了。
也许男生和女生的爱情观不一样吧，所以要求的也很自然的有差别。
得到的也许不是所要求的。
要求的可能永远得不到。
真不明白你在想什么，可以告诉我吗？
～你是好人，也是个坏人～
Friday, January 29, 2010
Random
#1 - I'm loving this place already! Spacious and nice stage.
#2 - My ever beloved "D". First pic in 2010. Poor boy he's sick. Take care ya.
#3 - My year! 2 circles already, feel so old suddenly. Tiger, rawr! Don't feel festive this year, mainly cuz we're not celebrating this year. I don't collect tiger items, but I got 3 this year already! Thanks <3 I don't mind if anybody wanna give me more :p Come to think about it, I do have quite a few tiger stuff at home. Shall blog about it next!
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Torn Between
It's a tough decision to make.
Really tough.
Dilemma kau kau punya.
Will I be able to be on par?
Fate is really something indescribable.
Love too.
Is it stupidity or that's what it's all about? Unavoidable?
When cupid strikes, you smile to yourself like a mad woman thinking about him.
When it leaves a scar on your heart, it hurts so much but you just can't stop thinking about him too.
You might say you will never fall for him, but it happened.
Why? Being obsessed with a guy who won't call you. You know it won't happen, but you just keep on praying, hoping, wishing.
Work has been okay. Average achievements so far. Currently in the pastry section. Suh-weet! Hmm spell desserts backwards and you'll get? :p Urgh, I have scars all over my hands... clumsy me. Planning, focus, organize, manage, solution... Hardwork!!!
This year really craving to go travelling, be it domestically or internationally. On my mind there's Sabah, Thailand, Vietnam, Taiwan, Hongkong, Australia, Macau, Switzerland, France... So many places, so little money. Boo... shall make it a yearly plan to travel!!!
More posting coming up!
Current song addicts:
Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
Boys Like Girls - Two Is Better Than One
~i still need you... i still miss you
Really tough.
Dilemma kau kau punya.
Will I be able to be on par?
Fate is really something indescribable.
Love too.
Is it stupidity or that's what it's all about? Unavoidable?
When cupid strikes, you smile to yourself like a mad woman thinking about him.
When it leaves a scar on your heart, it hurts so much but you just can't stop thinking about him too.
You might say you will never fall for him, but it happened.
Why? Being obsessed with a guy who won't call you. You know it won't happen, but you just keep on praying, hoping, wishing.
Work has been okay. Average achievements so far. Currently in the pastry section. Suh-weet! Hmm spell desserts backwards and you'll get? :p Urgh, I have scars all over my hands... clumsy me. Planning, focus, organize, manage, solution... Hardwork!!!
This year really craving to go travelling, be it domestically or internationally. On my mind there's Sabah, Thailand, Vietnam, Taiwan, Hongkong, Australia, Macau, Switzerland, France... So many places, so little money. Boo... shall make it a yearly plan to travel!!!
More posting coming up!
Current song addicts:
Lady Gaga - Bad Romance
Boys Like Girls - Two Is Better Than One
~i still need you... i still miss you
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Jammed
Life has been pretty dull... besides working it's still working... of course, nonetheless onlining... hahaha... i'm just so lazy to do other things.
Previously I was in garde manger, handling cold dishes. A week ago there was a rotate in the sections. Now i'm in the entremetier side. Handling pastas and vegetables. The tasks are pretty simple, but it requires coordination from ur mind and ur hands. It requires control, control of the fire. Control of different things at the same time.
So what's up with me? Got a 2 days break for raya last month, being in this line, 2 days of rest means so much. Although I didn't stay put at home that 2 days :p Had a karaoke session with a bunch of friends, yum cha on a cool night. Although the day wasn't at all perfect, but it was ok. Tried to act smart trying to be a good advisor, which failed outrageously. The next day spent some quality time with friends whom I seldom meet nowadays. Had a very simple birthday this year... nothing much to report about, all I wanna say is, I'm really, really glad to have friends like you all. Thanks for the presents, thanks for the cakes and homemade banofee pie (my first time eating it ok!)
My mind is pretty jammed up right now. Jammed with the problem of human relations. Human minds are so unpredictable. You don't know what they're thinking. What's worse is when you cannot predict what they say is actually what they mean it or they're just saying it to please you. You don't know whether they treat you good is because they pity you, and behind you they talk all bad about you. You feel so bloody heart pain when they say some stupid thing about you and tell you just joking when they actually mean it. Well, I know it's their mouth and I shouldn't be bothered, but it's just suffering. You don't even know to treat them as a 'friend' or not. To share with them how's your day or not. You wonder if you put all your heart into the friendship and they take it for granted or not. Yes, it's bothering me. ANd it's bothering me a lot. I hope I have an answer. But I guess, the mystery will stay unsolved forever.
Going on a short holiday this weekend. So looking forward to it. It's gonna be a good weekend, I'm sure! I miss my floor measuring days. I miss all my true friends. You know who you are :)
Previously I was in garde manger, handling cold dishes. A week ago there was a rotate in the sections. Now i'm in the entremetier side. Handling pastas and vegetables. The tasks are pretty simple, but it requires coordination from ur mind and ur hands. It requires control, control of the fire. Control of different things at the same time.
So what's up with me? Got a 2 days break for raya last month, being in this line, 2 days of rest means so much. Although I didn't stay put at home that 2 days :p Had a karaoke session with a bunch of friends, yum cha on a cool night. Although the day wasn't at all perfect, but it was ok. Tried to act smart trying to be a good advisor, which failed outrageously. The next day spent some quality time with friends whom I seldom meet nowadays. Had a very simple birthday this year... nothing much to report about, all I wanna say is, I'm really, really glad to have friends like you all. Thanks for the presents, thanks for the cakes and homemade banofee pie (my first time eating it ok!)
My mind is pretty jammed up right now. Jammed with the problem of human relations. Human minds are so unpredictable. You don't know what they're thinking. What's worse is when you cannot predict what they say is actually what they mean it or they're just saying it to please you. You don't know whether they treat you good is because they pity you, and behind you they talk all bad about you. You feel so bloody heart pain when they say some stupid thing about you and tell you just joking when they actually mean it. Well, I know it's their mouth and I shouldn't be bothered, but it's just suffering. You don't even know to treat them as a 'friend' or not. To share with them how's your day or not. You wonder if you put all your heart into the friendship and they take it for granted or not. Yes, it's bothering me. ANd it's bothering me a lot. I hope I have an answer. But I guess, the mystery will stay unsolved forever.
Going on a short holiday this weekend. So looking forward to it. It's gonna be a good weekend, I'm sure! I miss my floor measuring days. I miss all my true friends. You know who you are :)
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
For The First Time, Finally...
Sounds like an interesting topic huh? But nothing much to be hoo hah-ed about. Just another unexpected incident occured today.
It's just funny how things work. How God created the varieties of human beings, different personalities, different species of animals and plants, with functions or special abilities to protect themselves and for survival. It's funny how the more you want something to happen, it won't, and the least you expected it, it just *poof* in front of you.
I think I've dreamt, wished, emo-ed about bumping into D for like years... I've heard about people around me bumping into him for like N times, in 'bucks', in 'taman' mall... Some can even tell me they bump into him at the same place I was at at that same time. I admit going to places where he always hang out to see if I can 'indirectly accidentally' bump into him... lol... No fate I guess. Hmm...
Just after work today I was walking to the mall with my friend. A group of people were standing nearby the escalator chatting. While talking to my friend I looked at one of them who was wearing a mask and with very bright hair color. It didn't occur to me it was D at first. It took me like 3 seconds to realize. He shocked me, I think I shocked him too. Haha. Can't react in time. Only managed to wave in slow motion to D and his friends. After walking passed them, my first thought was 'my god, malunyer let him see me in shorts and slippers!' Argh!!!!!!! Didn't dare to turn my head back. That's it, my first time ever bumping into him and one word - stoned. Stoned stunned shocked.
My next dream - holiday with D. Continue to dreammmMm~~ dream dream dream~~~ The HK trip is impozzible already. Dreammmmm~~~~~~~
It's just funny how things work. How God created the varieties of human beings, different personalities, different species of animals and plants, with functions or special abilities to protect themselves and for survival. It's funny how the more you want something to happen, it won't, and the least you expected it, it just *poof* in front of you.
I think I've dreamt, wished, emo-ed about bumping into D for like years... I've heard about people around me bumping into him for like N times, in 'bucks', in 'taman' mall... Some can even tell me they bump into him at the same place I was at at that same time. I admit going to places where he always hang out to see if I can 'indirectly accidentally' bump into him... lol... No fate I guess. Hmm...
Just after work today I was walking to the mall with my friend. A group of people were standing nearby the escalator chatting. While talking to my friend I looked at one of them who was wearing a mask and with very bright hair color. It didn't occur to me it was D at first. It took me like 3 seconds to realize. He shocked me, I think I shocked him too. Haha. Can't react in time. Only managed to wave in slow motion to D and his friends. After walking passed them, my first thought was 'my god, malunyer let him see me in shorts and slippers!' Argh!!!!!!! Didn't dare to turn my head back. That's it, my first time ever bumping into him and one word - stoned. Stoned stunned shocked.
My next dream - holiday with D. Continue to dreammmMm~~ dream dream dream~~~ The HK trip is impozzible already. Dreammmmm~~~~~~~
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Updates
I am lost in words, in finding things to write about. Nothing much has been going on, except for working and spending some very preciously rare time with my family and friends. Laziness has caught up with me, I have been cooking and baking very very very rarely nowadays. It's hard to shake off old habits. Now even weight loves me so much that I can't shave him off, and fats stick to me like glue, he adores me so much. Why do all the bad things are so crazily in love with me (or should I say the other way round) and the good ones are 184,629,831,057 miles away from me?!?
When we're still a kid, we demand for new toys, parents' attention, grand birthday parties with huge cakes bigger than the size of your own; when we're in primary we talk about 'i-don't-friend-who' and gossip about who likes who; in secondary it's all about PMR, SPM, having bf's gf's; in college we detest assignments, trying hard not to fall asleep in classes and anticipate breaks and lunch and counting the time to go home. Now, with everyone working in different industries, all we talk about during meet ups is gossiping about who's getting married, selling insurance packages, make ups etc. I hate it when friends ask to go out for a drink and end up proposing an insurance package to you. But well, I guess it's something that you need to bear with and it's just part of their job.
Triple 09 just passed. Supposingly it's a very meaningful date, but nothing so meaningful to me. It would be special for couples who get engaged or married on this date, the number '9' being a symbolic numeric for 'longevity' or 'everlasting'. For me? har har har.
Working in a place like this, I see people who can really afford to spend. Giorgio Armani, Lewre, LV, Gucci, Prada, name it you've got it. If only I can indulge in shopping, spending with elegance like them. Yeah, I need to find a rich man in the first place. Or perhaps to prepare the bait, I need to spend some money for plastic surgery first? Oh gosh.
Birthday is coming soon. Har har har. I don't exactly mention about my birthday all these while, don't I? I've stopped asking for celebrations since like... primary school? I've not asked for people to celebrate with me, nor organising a party to welcome this 'festival'. We have it every year, nothing special to hoo hah about. I guess, when people gets older, they care lesser about special occasions. I respect those who celebrate anniversaries every single year. Good for them, keep up the good job.
When we're still a kid, we demand for new toys, parents' attention, grand birthday parties with huge cakes bigger than the size of your own; when we're in primary we talk about 'i-don't-friend-who' and gossip about who likes who; in secondary it's all about PMR, SPM, having bf's gf's; in college we detest assignments, trying hard not to fall asleep in classes and anticipate breaks and lunch and counting the time to go home. Now, with everyone working in different industries, all we talk about during meet ups is gossiping about who's getting married, selling insurance packages, make ups etc. I hate it when friends ask to go out for a drink and end up proposing an insurance package to you. But well, I guess it's something that you need to bear with and it's just part of their job.
Triple 09 just passed. Supposingly it's a very meaningful date, but nothing so meaningful to me. It would be special for couples who get engaged or married on this date, the number '9' being a symbolic numeric for 'longevity' or 'everlasting'. For me? har har har.
Working in a place like this, I see people who can really afford to spend. Giorgio Armani, Lewre, LV, Gucci, Prada, name it you've got it. If only I can indulge in shopping, spending with elegance like them. Yeah, I need to find a rich man in the first place. Or perhaps to prepare the bait, I need to spend some money for plastic surgery first? Oh gosh.
Birthday is coming soon. Har har har. I don't exactly mention about my birthday all these while, don't I? I've stopped asking for celebrations since like... primary school? I've not asked for people to celebrate with me, nor organising a party to welcome this 'festival'. We have it every year, nothing special to hoo hah about. I guess, when people gets older, they care lesser about special occasions. I respect those who celebrate anniversaries every single year. Good for them, keep up the good job.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
The Gift of Life
The most precious thing on earth... is to have a newborn... to give life to someone... to nourish and care for that someone... that small little angel... something that is so fragile to hold that you're scared you'll break her bones...
Well wishes and congrats to my dearest friend Mei Ling on the birth of her little princess Benize.
Went to FHM'09 (Food and Hotel Malaysia) which is held bi-annually. Ony went for like one hour during split shift. But manage to see Chef Chong and chat for awhile :) Didn't really browse through everything but just took a few shots of stuffs over there.
Satay machine
I missed out this but it seemed to be the talk of the whole FHM. A gold winner with distinction, meaning it scored 100 points... The only one I think. (Picture credit: Roderick Wong)
Well wishes and congrats to my dearest friend Mei Ling on the birth of her little princess Benize.
Went to FHM'09 (Food and Hotel Malaysia) which is held bi-annually. Ony went for like one hour during split shift. But manage to see Chef Chong and chat for awhile :) Didn't really browse through everything but just took a few shots of stuffs over there.
Satay machine
I missed out this but it seemed to be the talk of the whole FHM. A gold winner with distinction, meaning it scored 100 points... The only one I think. (Picture credit: Roderick Wong)Sunday, July 19, 2009
If I Have The Chance (and Money)
If I have the chance, and money, I would get Raymond Choon or Rick Lee to cut an inverted bob haircut like Posh Spice and dye it purple.
If I have the chance, and money, I would spray my car lime green and have red Patricks all over it. (oh so cute!)
If I have the chance, and money, I would buy a bungalow as the base of my restaurant and name it 'kopitiam' :p
If I have the chance, and money, Nike would be all I wear everyday.
If I have the chance, and money, I would live in France for 3 months.
If I have the chance, and money...
Oiitt! Wake up lar!!!
If I have the chance, and money, I would spray my car lime green and have red Patricks all over it. (oh so cute!)
If I have the chance, and money, I would buy a bungalow as the base of my restaurant and name it 'kopitiam' :p
If I have the chance, and money, Nike would be all I wear everyday.
If I have the chance, and money, I would live in France for 3 months.
If I have the chance, and money...
Oiitt! Wake up lar!!!
Sunday, June 07, 2009
Updates...
Work has been ... hectic.
I wouldn't say working equals to "no life", working 6 days a week and being at work place for 12 hours a day, yet I still get Sundays off. No doubt time for entertainment and rest has been shortened drastically.
Grateful to meet new people, very very nice people. Too nice that I felt like I'm being pampered. My colleagues treat me really good, and I do hope it's how they are and who they are. *namo namo*
Learning new things daily, new items, new ingredients, new ideas, new combination, new philosophies, new advice. Gosh, there's so much to learn and remember. Especially attitude wise.
Wander and wonder. Wonder for the unknown. Wandering around the unexpected. Hopefully, things will be for the better :) Ganbate kudasai everyone. Live for the better and put aside your doubts and sadness.
Waiting... anticipating... wanting... to watch Transformer 2... mwahahahahaha!
I wouldn't say working equals to "no life", working 6 days a week and being at work place for 12 hours a day, yet I still get Sundays off. No doubt time for entertainment and rest has been shortened drastically.
Grateful to meet new people, very very nice people. Too nice that I felt like I'm being pampered. My colleagues treat me really good, and I do hope it's how they are and who they are. *namo namo*
Learning new things daily, new items, new ingredients, new ideas, new combination, new philosophies, new advice. Gosh, there's so much to learn and remember. Especially attitude wise.
Wander and wonder. Wonder for the unknown. Wandering around the unexpected. Hopefully, things will be for the better :) Ganbate kudasai everyone. Live for the better and put aside your doubts and sadness.
Waiting... anticipating... wanting... to watch Transformer 2... mwahahahahaha!
Monday, May 11, 2009
100509 Mother's Day
I feel like a total different person compared to 2 months ago. Long gone the days of US time zone (sleeping at 6am, waking up at 3pm), the days of seeing my idols every weekend, catching up with entertainment news everyday, go to mamak whenever I want. I don't even bother going online. Yes, you didn't hear me wrong, going ONLINE. Wharhhht?!?!? Onlining, for me, was just like daily dosage of nicotine for smokers, addictive gambling for gamblers, clubbing for clubbers. Friends will always see my name appear on MSN almost 24/7, but now... (CY, right?) I take a look at my portable, I lie flat on the bed.
Ohh, back to the topic. An hour ago, it was still mother's day. We never really celebrate the occasion among my immediate family *guilty* I remember buying a gift set for my mum few years back, when I don't even have income on my own. So indirectly, she's buying it herself =_=" This year, bro and I surprised her with a homemade card & few slices of Secret Recipe cakes *guilty* (last minute beli punya *gulp*). No special gift as my salary this month left only bits and pieces. Sigh! Anyhow, she was surprised.
We usually celebrate the occasion with my mum's family. This year, we couldn't have any celebration, so we just had dinner at grandma's. Since grandpa passed away, we've been spending a lot of free time together, and nonetheless every Sunday, we go for breakfast and dinner.
Dad cooked yesterday. Sang har noodles, crab noodles, kai lan siew yoke, boiled chicken, stir fried crabs. Yummeh. I made some Mango Yoghurt Pudding & Chocolate Brownies, which didn't turn out that well. Still need to try harder.
Bro asked me when was the last time I said I love you to mom, I said 'never'. I guess, we just couldn't say it out in front of our parents. I need more courage to do so.
Happy Mother's Day to all the wonderful mothers in the whole wide world. You are the best, moms!
Ohh, back to the topic. An hour ago, it was still mother's day. We never really celebrate the occasion among my immediate family *guilty* I remember buying a gift set for my mum few years back, when I don't even have income on my own. So indirectly, she's buying it herself =_=" This year, bro and I surprised her with a homemade card & few slices of Secret Recipe cakes *guilty* (last minute beli punya *gulp*). No special gift as my salary this month left only bits and pieces. Sigh! Anyhow, she was surprised.
We usually celebrate the occasion with my mum's family. This year, we couldn't have any celebration, so we just had dinner at grandma's. Since grandpa passed away, we've been spending a lot of free time together, and nonetheless every Sunday, we go for breakfast and dinner.
Dad cooked yesterday. Sang har noodles, crab noodles, kai lan siew yoke, boiled chicken, stir fried crabs. Yummeh. I made some Mango Yoghurt Pudding & Chocolate Brownies, which didn't turn out that well. Still need to try harder.
Bro asked me when was the last time I said I love you to mom, I said 'never'. I guess, we just couldn't say it out in front of our parents. I need more courage to do so.
Happy Mother's Day to all the wonderful mothers in the whole wide world. You are the best, moms!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Black Day
From wikipedia:
Two weeks ago found a couple of small pouches of the same design of my two bags! Temptation is a sin I know. My weakness is to collect. Therefore... mwahahaha. Oh, I so miss Bangkok and Hatyai now. Damn the state of emergency.
Been craving for Delicious for many many weeks. Too bad don't have the chance to eat. Nobody wants to go with me too. Boo hoo.
Today my superior asked me what is my strength? What am I good at? I answered him 'I can type very fast.' He showed me the =_=" look. Frankly speaking, I have no idea what I'm good at in terms of my job. And it triggers me to think that if I'm in the right job. (God, I'm talking about WORK already!) Yeah yeah, this question goes on and on in my blog. I admit I have no confidence in myself at ALL. Yes, zero, kosong, ling. I don't know how I fair, whether I meet others' expectations or what they want from me. I don't know if I've done something wrong. I wouldn't want to be one who slows others down. Sigh! Maybe it'll be good if I can just marry a rich man and shake leg for the rest of my life. How I wish... I really, really wish.
*I will always be your gangsta. Forever. For life. 1 month & 23 days :'(
Sadly I didn't eat any jajangmyeon today. Should have taken some squid ink pasta back from workplace heehee! Anyway, it's celebration! Yeah, celebration for the singles. Proud to be. Will always be. Hahaha.Black Day (April 14) is a South Korean informal tradition for single people (a.k.a. Unit Solo/Solo Regiment, lee: 솔로부대) to get together and eat Jajangmyeon (noodles with black bean sauce), sometimes a white sauce is mixed for those who did not celebrate White Day.
The idea is that those who did not give or receive gifts on Valentine's Day (February 14) or White Day (March 14) can get together and eat Jajangmyeon (짜장면), white Korean noodles with black bean sauce (hence the name), to commiserate their singledom.
Two weeks ago found a couple of small pouches of the same design of my two bags! Temptation is a sin I know. My weakness is to collect. Therefore... mwahahaha. Oh, I so miss Bangkok and Hatyai now. Damn the state of emergency.
Been craving for Delicious for many many weeks. Too bad don't have the chance to eat. Nobody wants to go with me too. Boo hoo.
Today my superior asked me what is my strength? What am I good at? I answered him 'I can type very fast.' He showed me the =_=" look. Frankly speaking, I have no idea what I'm good at in terms of my job. And it triggers me to think that if I'm in the right job. (God, I'm talking about WORK already!) Yeah yeah, this question goes on and on in my blog. I admit I have no confidence in myself at ALL. Yes, zero, kosong, ling. I don't know how I fair, whether I meet others' expectations or what they want from me. I don't know if I've done something wrong. I wouldn't want to be one who slows others down. Sigh! Maybe it'll be good if I can just marry a rich man and shake leg for the rest of my life. How I wish... I really, really wish.
*I will always be your gangsta. Forever. For life. 1 month & 23 days :'(
Friday, April 10, 2009
How Are Things?
So how is all my faithful readers? How are things going on for you? Hope that you guys are enjoying as much as you all could.
Working makes me realize that, basics are very important. Practices are even MORE important. Everyday I learn something new. Working in the kitchen is really not easy. But I have good colleagues, so things are still okay. And, the most important thing is, I have good superiors. That's the most important thing. I think I would quit if there's a Ramsay as my ah-head :p
Funny egg among the bunch."There's no dumb people in this world, there's only lazy people in this world" Ganbatte kudasai Eve!
1 month & 19 days, and still counting... Guess I won't get to see you for a long, long time ='(
Into not-so-new songs nowadays. Listening to BSB, Westlife, Bryan Adams, Rascal Flatts and such. Habits are hard to change. What you like and dislike too. Please forgive me.
Please Forgive Me
by: Bryan Adams
still feels like our first night together
feels like the first kiss and it's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
still holdin' on, you're still the one
first time our eyes met - the same feeling I get
Only feels much stronger - I wanna love you longer
You still turn the fire on…
So if you're feelin' lonely don't
You're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Please believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch
We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough
I'm still holdin' on - you're still number one
I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves - I remember you yeah
I remember the night - you know I still do
So if you're feelin' lonely don't
You're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should
Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need ya like I do
Oh believe me - every word I say is true
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
One thing I'm sure of - is the way we make love
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'…
Please forgive me - I know not what I do
Please forgive me - I can't stop loving you
Don't deny me - this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me - if I need you like I do
Babe believe me-every word i say is true
Please forgive me - If I can´t stop loving you
Never leave me-I don't know what I do
Please forgive me- I Can´t stop loving you
Can't stop loving you
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Angel vs Devil
I finally got something that I always thought it's the best, only to doubt now if it's really the best.
为‘义’或为‘利’，说真的，在这个情况下，我很想为‘利’咯。因为‘义’的价值真的无可接受呢。
Quote someone:
"I believe the facts that everyone have their turn to come. It is the matter of time. But i also believe that it was merely a statement to cheer up those who are falling behind. Or sorry to say.. It’s for Loser!!!"
Great, I so feel like a loser now.
至少你有天份。至少你知道喜欢做什么，要做什么。
What's greater than that?
I just squatted in front of the toilet bowl and vomitted my whole damn supper out.
Should have bought the WTF shirt I saw that day.
我们一起祷告。
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Light My Way
Should I celebrate or what? Hoho, it's been a full year. Yes, 365 days gone like the wind. Poof! A year of what? A year being jobless! A year enjoying my life. A year which I took time off, supposing to do things that I want to do, but what have I done? Nothing, full stop. I'm kinda regretting now. Not on the job part, but not doing the things that I thought I should do. Sigh, useless isn't it? I should have cook everything until my stove gets rusty, I should have gone backpacking or travelling, I should have compiled the information that I needed, or perhaps, I should have WORKED?!?
WTF.
Sometimes I really feel damn annoyed on myself. I never seem to have contributed anything positive. Time management is one thing I really need to improve on. I guess I don't have it at all in the first place.
WTF.
One day I was emo-ing and SS asked me not to push myself too hard. Think think think, I'm not even pushing in the first place! I love what I'm doing, but just that it brings harm financially.
WTF.
I've thought of trying out wedding planner. Not forgetting being a part of the culinary world. I also considered the entertainment line. Or else home catering. I have thought of every single job that I think my ability permits me to do. Spinning round and round, what suits me? And I suit what? Tough tough question. I always scared that what I like might not be what I can do.
WTF.
I have so many undone tasks all piled up in front of me. (But you're not working!) Hmm, put it in this way whereby it's tasks I enjoy doing yet without any income. I have few phood blogs delayed, to help out with Project Home, do some writing etc. I just realize it and it's due tomorrow!
WTF.
I'm having super complicated feelings now. To the extend that I don't know what am I feeling. Thinking too much, expecting too much, imagining too much.
WTF.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009
Iswak 2: The End
ISWAK2 made me kill a lot of trees. Especially the last episode.
Yeah, call me a slow-mo. I just finished watching.
The last episode is so, so, so, so, the kns which makes people cry non stop.
I seriously cried non stop, with a blocked nose, bloated eyes and liters of tears.
One down, few more dramas to go. I feel so guilty for keeping these dramas for so long because they belonged to my friends. Hehe. Oopsie.
Hmm, at least these dramas keep my mind from thinking all kinds of craps.
Again, all sorts of 'i think', 'if' and 'what if' questions bloom like mushrooms after the rain.
I wonder why are we are so 'creative' when it comes to all these bullsh*ts and not during brainstorming sessions.
Curiosity kills. It's intolerant. Yet it's unavoidable. Comparisons too.
I just don't know why I have all these feelings of hatred inside of me.
Ok, hatred is too strong to be used. Dislike? Uncomfortable? Annoyed?
Or perhaps, it's jealousy?
I don't know.
I underestimated the varieties of human behavior, personality and attitude in this world.
Hmm, I don't have to compare the world. Just compare the range of KL is enough.
I guess I put too much hope in others to be asgood normal as me.
How interesting life is.
And I'm sure, more to come.
Yeah, call me a slow-mo. I just finished watching.
The last episode is so, so, so, so, the kns which makes people cry non stop.
I seriously cried non stop, with a blocked nose, bloated eyes and liters of tears.
One down, few more dramas to go. I feel so guilty for keeping these dramas for so long because they belonged to my friends. Hehe. Oopsie.
Hmm, at least these dramas keep my mind from thinking all kinds of craps.
Again, all sorts of 'i think', 'if' and 'what if' questions bloom like mushrooms after the rain.
I wonder why are we are so 'creative' when it comes to all these bullsh*ts and not during brainstorming sessions.
Curiosity kills. It's intolerant. Yet it's unavoidable. Comparisons too.
I just don't know why I have all these feelings of hatred inside of me.
Ok, hatred is too strong to be used. Dislike? Uncomfortable? Annoyed?
Or perhaps, it's jealousy?
I don't know.
I underestimated the varieties of human behavior, personality and attitude in this world.
Hmm, I don't have to compare the world. Just compare the range of KL is enough.
I guess I put too much hope in others to be as
How interesting life is.
And I'm sure, more to come.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Life, oh life
It gives me goose bumps every time I enter a hospital. Not that I see dead people, but, the whole 'ambience' is totally... *shivers*.
Grandpa was admitted to the hospital. Just came back from visiting him. To be honest, the number of times I actually go to a hospital can be counted with my two bare hands. Not sure it's a good thing or bad though. Maybe I watched too much dramas, I tend to imagine a lot of 'negative possibilities' at the hospital, which I fear to come. Aih~
Went to 1U just now. Roses, hearts, love, sweetness everywhere. Aww... hao lang man oh... hou lum ar... I saw guys buying bouquets already! (on the 12th?!?)
My old sickness is back. I didn't sleep for the whole night again. And I did nothing. Hehehe! Ok, deprived of sleep now. Nite!
Grandpa was admitted to the hospital. Just came back from visiting him. To be honest, the number of times I actually go to a hospital can be counted with my two bare hands. Not sure it's a good thing or bad though. Maybe I watched too much dramas, I tend to imagine a lot of 'negative possibilities' at the hospital, which I fear to come. Aih~
Went to 1U just now. Roses, hearts, love, sweetness everywhere. Aww... hao lang man oh... hou lum ar... I saw guys buying bouquets already! (on the 12th?!?)
My old sickness is back. I didn't sleep for the whole night again. And I did nothing. Hehehe! Ok, deprived of sleep now. Nite!
Saturday, February 07, 2009
What To Do With My Wall?
Hmm, my room wall seems pretty dull. Want to do something about it but don't know what to. It's just blue blue blue everywhere! Hehe. Graffiti? Paint butterflies/leafs? Photos? Haha. Treat this post as introducing my room to you lah.
Maybe this small part of the dark blue wall as well... hmm what to do? What to do?
The view from my room. Nice? :p
My bed, with my dear Patrick :)
I have to say, I love my closet too! :p
With slide-able mirror... save space :)
Look like boutique boh? Colors category! :p
Again and again, I write the same thing over and over again. I just don't know what I really want to do? I'm scared to make the wrong choice. Well, blame all the bad experiences from people I know. I like baking and cooking, but can I do it as to the standard of fulfilling the customers' demands? Can I work in a hectic kitchen? (Imagine Gordon Ramsay oh god) I dislike management, but that's the cert I graduated from! I'm looking into so many different options which I don't even know if I suit it in the first place! Cake studio? Bread making? Hotel? Pastry? Or perhaps I don't suit kitchen at all? I even widen the scope to the entertainment line. Lol! Joke of the year deyh.
I know, I must try first. I just can't stop myself from thinking of the worst. Aih~
Maybe this small part of the dark blue wall as well... hmm what to do? What to do?
The view from my room. Nice? :p
My bed, with my dear Patrick :)
I have to say, I love my closet too! :p
With slide-able mirror... save space :)
Look like boutique boh? Colors category! :p
Again and again, I write the same thing over and over again. I just don't know what I really want to do? I'm scared to make the wrong choice. Well, blame all the bad experiences from people I know. I like baking and cooking, but can I do it as to the standard of fulfilling the customers' demands? Can I work in a hectic kitchen? (Imagine Gordon Ramsay oh god) I dislike management, but that's the cert I graduated from! I'm looking into so many different options which I don't even know if I suit it in the first place! Cake studio? Bread making? Hotel? Pastry? Or perhaps I don't suit kitchen at all? I even widen the scope to the entertainment line. Lol! Joke of the year deyh.
I know, I must try first. I just can't stop myself from thinking of the worst. Aih~
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
40 Random Things
40 Random Things
1. I am a Christian, which many people don't expect me to be.
2. I can be very stubborn at times, when I want to.
3. I must online everyday (unless time does not permits me to).
4. I love white rice (especially fluffy and slightly sticky ones).
5. I think and emo a lot.
6. I always save the best for last (e.g. eat egg white then only egg yolk in sunny side up, eat the bread then only the sausage in sausage bun)
7. I love food, and everything about food - cooking, baking, books, mags, collectibles ^^
8. I blog hop every time I online.
9. I have a blog (duhh! You're reading it!)
10. I have tonnes of cookbooks in my house but I seldom cook :p
11. I heart travelling, seeing new things and new places.
12. I'm not much of a fan of trendy stuff.
13. I am not much of a fan of chocolates (which I think is abnormal, but Ferrero Rocher is an excluded case), and I only eat chocolate with nuts. Don't really fancy sweets either.
14. I don't know to categorize myself as quiet or talkative.
15. I prefer baking at wee hours :p
16. I heart Nike, Patrick the dog and lavender.
17. <-- My favorite number, my birthdate.
18. My favorite colour is blue.
19. But, my favorite colour to wear is black.
20. I always think I'm fat. Which is true.
21. I love brinjal, eggs, vanilla ice cream, carbonara, caesar salad, deep fried sotong, si ham, and salmon sashimi!
22. I drive a Kelisa.
23. I enjoy going for buffets (But I don't go often of course)
24. I am a Virgo, and a Tiger (Tigress? :p) I was born on Mooncake Festival eve :p
25. I sleep a lot. And I always have problem waking up.
26. I prefer sleeping sideways, and hugging a bolster.
27. I can cry just because people treat me nice.
28. I am very very grateful to have very understanding family members and loving friends for life!
29. I want to learn knitting, yoga and dancing!
30. My favorite idols are Westlife, Jimmy Lin, Jay Chou, Danell Lee and Danny One *wub*
31. I am soon-to-be a one year unemployed person! :p (Macam so proud, cheesh!)
32. I always fear and imagine bad things happening.
33. I am planning to name my kids Jamie and Oliver in the future.
34. My dream is to own a cafe (but it's a far away dream sigh~)
35. I like to watch dramas, but I don't get addicted. Therefore there's so many pending!
36. I 'mm seh tak' to throw things that I like. I am still keeping my primary school autograph book, gifts in standard 6 and even faded bookmarks!
37. I've been to France, China, Thailand, Singapore and Australia. Yet to go other countries. Ganbateh!
38. I love my baby cousin heeeeaaaaapppppppps!!! My precious.
39. I am aiming to climb Mt Kinabalu.
40. I am single and available. Mwahahahaha~~ (Can't think of any to write dy so saja lah)
1. I am a Christian, which many people don't expect me to be.
2. I can be very stubborn at times, when I want to.
3. I must online everyday (unless time does not permits me to).
4. I love white rice (especially fluffy and slightly sticky ones).
5. I think and emo a lot.
6. I always save the best for last (e.g. eat egg white then only egg yolk in sunny side up, eat the bread then only the sausage in sausage bun)
7. I love food, and everything about food - cooking, baking, books, mags, collectibles ^^
8. I blog hop every time I online.
9. I have a blog (duhh! You're reading it!)
10. I have tonnes of cookbooks in my house but I seldom cook :p
11. I heart travelling, seeing new things and new places.
12. I'm not much of a fan of trendy stuff.
13. I am not much of a fan of chocolates (which I think is abnormal, but Ferrero Rocher is an excluded case), and I only eat chocolate with nuts. Don't really fancy sweets either.
14. I don't know to categorize myself as quiet or talkative.
15. I prefer baking at wee hours :p
16. I heart Nike, Patrick the dog and lavender.
17. <-- My favorite number, my birthdate.
18. My favorite colour is blue.
19. But, my favorite colour to wear is black.
20. I always think I'm fat. Which is true.
21. I love brinjal, eggs, vanilla ice cream, carbonara, caesar salad, deep fried sotong, si ham, and salmon sashimi!
22. I drive a Kelisa.
23. I enjoy going for buffets (But I don't go often of course)
24. I am a Virgo, and a Tiger (Tigress? :p) I was born on Mooncake Festival eve :p
25. I sleep a lot. And I always have problem waking up.
26. I prefer sleeping sideways, and hugging a bolster.
27. I can cry just because people treat me nice.
28. I am very very grateful to have very understanding family members and loving friends for life!
29. I want to learn knitting, yoga and dancing!
30. My favorite idols are Westlife, Jimmy Lin, Jay Chou, Danell Lee and Danny One *wub*
31. I am soon-to-be a one year unemployed person! :p (Macam so proud, cheesh!)
32. I always fear and imagine bad things happening.
33. I am planning to name my kids Jamie and Oliver in the future.
34. My dream is to own a cafe (but it's a far away dream sigh~)
35. I like to watch dramas, but I don't get addicted. Therefore there's so many pending!
36. I 'mm seh tak' to throw things that I like. I am still keeping my primary school autograph book, gifts in standard 6 and even faded bookmarks!
37. I've been to France, China, Thailand, Singapore and Australia. Yet to go other countries. Ganbateh!
38. I love my baby cousin heeeeaaaaapppppppps!!! My precious.
39. I am aiming to climb Mt Kinabalu.
40. I am single and available. Mwahahahaha~~ (Can't think of any to write dy so saja lah)
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Make use
Shuts! My blog layout lari until dunno become what dy.
Look what I found at a wan tan mee stall in Taman Desa which I 'bong chan' since primary! Those who stays in Sri Lempah will definitely know this stall which sells good and cheap wan tan mee. There's some empty land around his stall so he made use of the land and plant all these!
Brinjal
Lady's finger
Look what I found at a wan tan mee stall in Taman Desa which I 'bong chan' since primary! Those who stays in Sri Lempah will definitely know this stall which sells good and cheap wan tan mee. There's some empty land around his stall so he made use of the land and plant all these!
Brinjal
Lady's fingerTo be honest, this is my first time seeing brinjal and lady's finger on the plant itself. Living in a city is not that good in one way. You tend to lose all these knowledge on gardening, plants and vegetables. These actully ignite my interest to go to vege and fruit plantations, and find info on how everything grows! Where coriander seeds come from? How to grow onions and garlic? I always tell myself, I must do this, I must do that, then I tell myself 'tomorrow lah', and then... tomorrow never comes.
Was chatting with my secondary school mates yesterday when we were out visiting, Isa mentioned about make use of 2009 and make it the best year, and to do something about life, career, future etc. Make use... I wonder if I ever made use of my past 22 years of life. 23 soon, wth. Wasted a lot of time when I could make the best out of it. I should have made use of the porch of my previous house to plant, now that I'm living in a condo. I should have made more use of my stove and oven. I should have made use of time to brush up my skills. It's not too late to start doing so, but, I think I've wasted a lot a lot. Too much.
Was chatting with my secondary school mates yesterday when we were out visiting, Isa mentioned about make use of 2009 and make it the best year, and to do something about life, career, future etc. Make use... I wonder if I ever made use of my past 22 years of life. 23 soon, wth. Wasted a lot of time when I could make the best out of it. I should have made use of the porch of my previous house to plant, now that I'm living in a condo. I should have made more use of my stove and oven. I should have made use of time to brush up my skills. It's not too late to start doing so, but, I think I've wasted a lot a lot. Too much.
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