Last day of 2011

Here I am sitting at Toast Box MV blogging on the last day of 2011. The mall is crowded with people, almost every shop is having their year end sale, i see boyfriends and husbands standing outside Vincci waiting for their other half doing their shoes shopping :p

How do i feel about 2011? Hmm, it's been tough honestly. Tough in the sense of emotionally. My 2011 was filled with much much emotions, mixtures of complicated feelings. There are good sides of it of course, and bad ones as well.

I experienced new things, such as going for marathons, I visited a new country which is Hong Kong. I am still able to find time to get together with my school and college mates whom we don't get to meet often.


I am grateful that i have friends and family who are very supportive and do include me in many activities. I sometimes do feel that due to my working hours and that i'm not a nice person to hang out with that people wont want to include me in their outings, but i'm grateful that i do get to join them. Thinking too much maybe.


I learned that there are stages in treating your friends, your loved ones and your family. I learned that there are limits, there are gaps, there are things that can be said, things that can't be said. Sometimes, truths are the words that can't be said. And sometimes, people just don't tell what's inside their heart. Express your words to your loved ones before everything becomes too late. Let them know how you feel before you regret.

I learned that health is a very important thing. I see people falling sick very frequently. Please take care of your health because without good health, nothing can be done well.

I learned that if you want to do something, you need to spend time, keep trying, have patience and do it whole heartedly to get the result that you want. I see the way my parents plant the plants in Seremban, they spend hours digging, plucking weeds under the hot sun, wrapping the fruits one by one, separating chicken dungs. They failed at some cuz some of the plants die, but they just shrug it off and plant new ones. Hmm, something to learn.

I learned that some things will never be the same again once it's gone, once you cut the string, it cant be put back together like how it supposed to be. No matter how much you pray or hope. Miracles do not happen, just like fairy tales does not exist in the real world. I learned that envy and jealousy really can kill. It did, it killed me. I've yet to forgive myself, and don't think that I'll be forgiven. Don't deserve anything. Wouldn't ask, couldn't ask. The grass is greener on the other side. I can even envy a girl I don't know on the street, thinking she's so pretty, her body is so nice. We'll never stop wanting to know, wanting to ask, wanting to question, wanting to understand, but often there are things you wouldn't be able to know or understand no matter how much you wish to.

10 years back we asked ourselves during high school how will we be when we're 25. Now that we're 25, we'd rather go back to 10 years ago, and also we wonder what's it gonna be like tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, everyday hoping for a better tomorrow, wishing that we didn't make so much mistakes, didn't caused so much sorrows, hoping that we didn't hurt people so much, wishing it didn't hurt so much as well.

I don't count myself being a good person this year, because I seemed to caused a lot of mistakes, fume and sadness to others. Rather than feeling good, i feel my self esteem went down, a lot. I lost some confidence in myself, in terms of erm... socializing i would say. Sometimes it felt like, everything I do or say seems to be wrong, seems to create anger. Nothing seems right. I need to learn so much more in treating my friends and family good, need to learn so much more not to create sins.

It wasn't a bad year for me, nor very good. There's so much more that I need to learn, that is. A lot a lot a lot a lot to learn. I have to remain 'expect the unexpected'. I have to learn not to expect. I have to learn to be good.

Happy new year to everyone out there. Have a great 2012. May you achieve more. May you be blessed with love, joy, happiness, great health and great wealth always.

-I'm sorry I over reacted, no matter what, just call my name and i'll be there when you needed.
-默默地守护
-Thank you for being in my 2011.

Updates 2011

A year and a half has passed since i last updated my this blog. Last time, it used to be a daily thing to blog, now it's ran into hibernation. Not that I don't online, I still online, but slightly less frequent, and with all the current new things online like voucher buying, online shopping, food blogs hopping, facebooking, there seems to be more things to see in less time =_="

Well, well, what happened to me in the past a year and a half? Hmm, nothing unusual, nothing great, small achievements here and there, and also a lot of ups and downs. A lot of tears but a lot of laughters as well.

Someone once told me that you wouldn't know if you've never been there, you wouldn't understand if you never experience it before. Now i know what he means. You wouldn't know how happy is happy or how sad is sad if something happened more than what you expect, you wouldn't know how much you disappointed others until you heard/saw their thoughts/expression. You wouldn't feel what it's like until you reach that level, whatever level it is.

Last year, I said that I learned a lot. A lot, a lot. This year I learned more and more, a lot a lot a lot a lot. I guess it goes on and on every year. I failed to be good this year, mad at myself for failing what i promised, crossing the border. I caused myself very very unhappy this year, cuz of myself. It was painful, really really painful, was at the edge of breaking down and depression. But luckily things didn't go beyond. I can be very happy at one moment, and then sad the next. People say the past is the past, forget it and move ahead. Not easy for me. Or perhaps all girls will always remember the past, every detail, every word, every piece of memory. Be it a good memory or a bad memory. People say forgive and forget, i don't know if i'm forgiven or not, but i guess no matter what, scars always remain.

This year I enjoyed myself a lot with my 2 angels, family. Didn't do a lot of jalan jalan cari makan to try new food but hopefully i'll still get to next year. A lot of things want to do, but still left undone, haven't achieve. Hopefully i will.

This year, I learnt that this world really macam macam ada. All sorts, all kinds. "Expect the unexpected" is so so true. You wouldn't expect it would be like that. You wouldn't expect people to change to become a total different person. "Never judge a book by its cover" you wouldn't expect someone that you see is a good person to be the other way round. Scary... scary in a psychological way. And you wouldn't expect people to bang your car and then scold you instead of apologizing. Sigh. I also learnt not to trust strangers.

I think a lot about relationships and love. You will learn a lot after watching 'You're The Apple Of My Eye' :p The feelings when you look at the one you like walking down the aisle. No doubt will yearn to be in one, but i understand never to rush. I'm not desperate. Definitely will envy at happy couples and wish for one to care for but it's not my fate yet :) Single is good in some ways also. Love is all about trust for each other, neverending tolerance, patience and love for each other. it's not measured by how expensive the gift is, what brand of handbag or perfume. It's the communication and bond between two lovers. Something that only both of them will know and what others wouldn't understand. I don't need flowers, I don't need rings, I don't need gifts, to me, if to me, it's all the small little memories that matters the most :)

Work wise, I'm currently back at the meat section. Long way to go, long long way to go. Definitely is a challenge, the most challenging section has yet to come, but meat is still a very challenging one to me. People come, people go. Year end is super busy period. Hopefully I still can get through it all. Hmm.

Aiming a lot on travelling to at least 1 new country every year, hopefully can achieve, and hopefully got enough money to achieve :p And also to travel to new domestic nature area as well. Photography, diving, cooking, baking, travelling, blogging etc etc etc... so many things.

This year I started getting involved in marathons. Just managed to join three so far, one was the Taylor's College charity run 5km, one was Siemens Run 10km and just today I done the Nike Run 10km. Not a sporty person but it's definitely a good try. Siemens one was kinda tough, I walked more than run. Nike one i pushed myself to run as much as I could, I force myself to run uphill, I managed to run 3km without stopping, the last 4km was tough. I thought I did better than I expect but hmm, not really. Really salute those who run non stop. All these there were no finishing medals so no medals this year :( Better luck next year.

So much more to achieve, so much more to learn, so much more to be a better person. I guess things will never ever be the same anymore, hopefully scars will fade, and hopefully it will be a better tomorrow, a happier tomorrow. Just give and don't expect anything in return, you'll definitely feel better.

3.37am

Fuhh! I've lost the passion to blog. Once a frequent motion has turned into hibernation for months. Not only that but it seems like I've also lost much communications with my friends and family. At times I don't even see my parents for a couple of days even though we stay under the same roof. By the time I wake up they're already out to work, and by the time I come home they've already slept. Friends work office hours while I work till late. The only people I hang out now is colleagues during work. Really have to appreciate the moments you get to hang out with your pals.

Gonna head for Hatyai in 5 hours time. Time to clear some annual leaves as I've not touched a single day of my annual leaves until now. It was quite a dilemma to go or not to, due to some other equally important issue to me. But since it's a rare chance to go holiday with my parents and especially my baby sayang #1, I chose for the holiday. Plus, a total of 9 of us including 4 very elderly people (my grandma, my grandpa's brother and 2 sister in laws), my dad can't possibly take care all of them by himself as he has to take care of my mom and aunt and baby sayang too if I didn't go, so apart of going for holiday, I have to go to carry their stuff.

These few weeks had been busy at work. Loads of functions, and more to come. Lack of staff on the service side and I had to help out as a service associate for like one whole week. Well, not really keen on doing service but I guess it's part of the learning process too. Everyday you learn something new.

Seemed to be making a lot of mistakes these few weeks. Some at work, but mostly in personality wise. Seems that most of my actions hurt people a lot. Hmm, well, you made a mistake, then you are bound to get punishment. The punishment was miserable, to the extend that I cried at work... twice. The feeling was just horrible.

Better go get some sleep.

Gonna miss you.

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I don't know what title to put...

Life has been going pretty okay so far. Everyday wake up, work, eat, work, go home, online, sleep. The same routine goes on and on. I would say I'm performing okay in pastry. Making breads, churning ice creams, making chocolate macaroons, some cakes, crepes and bavarois. Fuh, not easy but I'm learning day by day. Learn and learn and learn. Mistakes do happen, and what I need to learn is how to alter towards perfection (quote someone), well, nothing is perfect but at least it's going that way.

Aunt called in the midnight 3 days ago saying both her kids were admitted to the hospital suspecting influenza A. They were kept in the ICU. Blood sample were taken but results only will be out the next day. My god, terrified. The youngest one is not even 1 year old. Cried the whole night wondering what will happen. Read the newspaper about kids died due to h1n1. Argh, that's shitty! Dreaded the hours until evening and aunt smsed to say result was negative. Thank the lord. Quote someone, negative doesn't always mean something bad :) But they weren't allowed to leave the hospital just yet. Went and visit them on the 3rd day. The elder one is getting much better, already without the drip and jumping around. She said she likes the hospital bed =_=" cuz can use the remote to control up and down, front and back. The baby's lung is not too good. Kept crying when she sees the doctor or nurse. Aunt sms-ed me saying just after I left the doctor came and insert a 6-inch tube into her nose down her throat to suck out the phlegm. Oh my god, I couldn't imagine if I were there to see it.

Parents are away for 10 days for holiday in China with grandma and relatives. I seriously respect working mothers who can still maintain the house so clean and tidy, what's more including washing and ironing clothes. Respect.

Money not enough. Everything around me is seductive. Lomo, fish eye, slr lens, iphone, new laptop, nike, lumix zr3, chef's knife, and I need new pants!

I need a holiday. And now, I need some sleep. Tired. Night.

040410 Broga Hill + Klang Bak Kut Teh

04 April 2010

A desire arises in the mind. One will never be satisfied until its desire has been fulfilled. It's been some time since I heard and read about Broga Hill. Just a half hour drive there yet I've never heard of it until now.

Broga Hill, also known as Bukit Lalang （茅草山）[yes, the hilltops are filled with weeds], is located at Kampung Broga in Semenyih. Very near to Kajang and Seremban. And it's just a stone throw away from the expansive University of Nottingham.


Woke up at 4am+ to reach there in time for sunrise. Got lost in the way although I had directions with me. It rained on the way, so some part of our sporty spirit has been dampened thinking it will be cloudy and sunrise cannot be seen.


Reached at 6am+. The sky was still pitch black but many cars were already parked at the roadside of the way leading to the hill. You can either park at the roadside in front of the rabbit farm or inside the palm oil estate opposite the rabbit farm where u have to pay RM2.00. Walk through the palm oil estate and off you go up up and away!







The road up was ok, not to say very steep or muddy. With the place being so overrated, the steps have already been 'laid out' for you, but there are still certain challenging parts though.



It took us about 30 minutes to reach the first peak. Fuhh! It's been quite awhile since I did outdoors, luckily my stamina is still okay. By the time we reach halfway, the sky was already starting to get bright, hmm, kinda disappointed. Reach at 6am would be perfect.



There are a total of 4 peaks, according to the signboard it's 1.7km, but it was wayyyyyyyy more than 1.7km definitely! There were a lot of people up on the hilltop already when we reached, mostly avid photographers carrying all sorts brand of SLRs, we even saw two kids with their family who is so semangat-ed and keep saying 'majulah ke depan! jangan maju ke belakang!' Lol!




Well, although the sunrise was not the sunrise I expect it to be, it was nice to hike a bit and feel the not-so fresh air breeze, and one will only be satisfied when there's good company to it :) Thanks peeps (YSS, YSY, YYR, CSY - how come all got Y one kekeke!)


Going down is tougher than going up. You need to be very careful, one slip and you'll end up being a squashed swiss roll. Kekeke. And you need to be careful cuz some 'monkeys' might bang into you when they 'drift' down the hill. And you still will end up being a squashed swiss roll.

Things to bring if you go for sunrise: Torchlight - a must (if you forgot, there's a stall selling it there), mosquito repellent (you can apply before you go), water, towel (if you have short fringe like me that irritates you at the forehead it helps a lot!), camera. And try not to wear black.

Directions to Broga Hill: Head towards Puchong, you will pass IOI Mall, Tesco on your right, follow Putrajaya/Kajang signboard. Pass RM1.60 toll, you will come to a fork where putrajaya/cyberjaya go straight and Kajang (exit 6A) turn left. So you follow the Kajang way (exit 6A). Go all the way straight. You will pass by exit 5, exit 4 and so on. Just go straight (follow Semenyih signboard). Then you will pass two RM1.00 toll. After the second RM1.00 toll, keep left at Jalan Semenyih.

Turn right at the traffic light. You will be on some small road similar to truck roads. You might be thinking you're already heading to Seremban or something but yes you're on the right track don't worry. After some while you will pass by Restoran 69 on your left. Then a Maybank on a row of shops on your right, and then a Petronas on your right (at the Petronas also got Maybank ATM). Turn left at the traffic light where you see the Petronas. Go all the way straight, you will be in total darkness if you go before sunrise. After quite some while, you will see University of Nottingham on your left, can't miss it. Go straight still, and you will see cars parked at the roadside. You will notice a rabbit farm on your right and on your left is the palm oil estate where the Broga Hill path is located. Warm up and let's go! :)

After that, we adjourned for breakfast! Another mission accomplished! Klang bak kut teh for breakfast! Woo hoo! From one end to another end. I slept in the car :p We went to Yap Eng Bak Kut Teh at Taman Sentosa, Klang. Soup BKT, Dry BKT, Otak Otak, yum! Although it's cooked the dry way but the meat is still so tender!


All squeeky clean! Typical chinese-lang, we all love to drink soup.


The bill came up to RM74 for 5 of us.

Directions for Yap Eng Bak Kut Teh: Using the Kesas highway, go towards Klang direction. Exit at the Kampung Jawa/Kampung Bukit Kemuning exit (turn right at the traffic light), go straight until you come to a roundabout and turn left (9 o'clock), go straight for about 1km I think then you will see Yap Eng BKT on your right (red signboard), just U-turn at the nearest junction and ta daa!