Thank God! I'm Done!

I'm sure you guys are quite bored of seeing all my previous emo posts about my worries in my dissertation. I wasn't able to submit it on time and I only submitted it 10 days later. Rushing it like hell without sleeping for 2 days 1 night. Thought of passing it up with the next batch but was informed have to pay RM800 because it's considered a re-sit. (Already so rich still want to eat ppl's money) Of course, being the kiamsiap me sure rather rush than to pay lah (My lecturer advice me it's not worth it too anyway) And, I risk the chance of failing because 20% of my total marks will be deducted. Farks. 20% is A LOT ok! (Ish, regret now also no use)

Yesterday was my oral defense to present my dissertation. The scariest, longest and last presentation of my entire education life. Didn't sleep well the previous night because I seriously am worried to death. Went in at 4.15pm and was in there for almost 1 whole blardy hour. I was like 'and then... uhh... then... uhh... sorry... uhh' 2 juries staring at you talking. Thank god they were only lecturers (but still, they were strict!). There were supposed to be external juries meaning high rank managers from the hotel industry but didn't see any. Comment was OHKAY but I was still scared cuz I might fail even though my presentation was OHKAY. Well, at least everything is OVER!

Went out the whole day today with some friends. Haha, I think I explored KL today more than in my 20 years of life. Went to Lake Garden, and now only I know the locations for Planetarium, Memorial Tun Abdul Razak, Tugu Negara, Bird Park, Butterfly Farm all :p Well, I went before but it was when I was like in kindergarten ok! Went to KL then Kajang then Cheras then Subang then Cheras then Subang then back home! Someone said I have baby face and looks like an SPM student! Wakakaka! Thanks *someone* for the compliment. I'm so proud. First time in my life someone say I look younger than my age. Because usually people will say I look old =_="

The announcement of passing students was said to be out today. But I don't have the courage to go check it out at college. I told Nicholle 'if I pass, call me. If I fail don't call me.' She said: "So I purposely will not call you lah." Ma de~ Halfway through dinner got sms. "Shyt. Namo namo namo, please say I pass please say I pass. *Flip open my phone* Ma de~~ It was Ivy." Zha dou. 10 minutes later another sms came. "Namo namo namo" *Flip open phone* NA MO OMI TO FO! Passed!!! Wahoo!!! Thank god!!!

From now on, I'm a full time 'floor measurer'. So any of you want teman to go out just call me at 012-3456789 muahaha! Not!! You guys know my number :) I have tonnes to do before I find
a job permanently. Enjoy kau kau first!

Tomorrow will be the result announcement as in announcing our grades. Not expecting good grades this time. I'll just enjoy the few hours tomorrow with all my friends. I guess it will be the last time I'll see some of them. I just hope I won't use up all my tissues. And take loads and loads of pics!!! Will blog about tomorrow.. well, tomorrow! Nyahaha!

HAKUNA MATATA!!!

思念是一种病

My friendster horoscope for the day:
Facing your fears today will leave you feeling high-spirited well into the evening.

Hmm... I wonder what fears... I hope I made the right decision to go. It had caused me a big, big, big dilemma. Seriously. Even worse than the one I had previously. I'm just praying hard that it will be fun.

Have you ever been in a situation that you just felt depressed out of no reason? I've been feeling that since evening until now. My eyes get wet for no reason. Listening to the songs I like, I cry. Looking at the photos, I cry. All feelings are mixed up inside me. Excitement, happiness, sadness, berat hati, blurness, sleepiness. Arggghhh!

Been wondering, can meals buy appreciation/acknowledgement? Often when other people do us a favour, we'll say "Thank you, belanja you makan next time." Haha, does a breakfast/lunch/dinner/supper carries the value of the help they gave? I guess it does... if not, why would everybody fall for it?

Sem 2 subjects are... I don't know... Half deadly and half interesting. Tourism Econs? Organizational Behavior? Managing Guest Experience? What kinda subjects are these? I know they're important for us. But I suffered throughout the classes. Seriously, nothing gets in my head. However, Miss Karen's subs are interesting. Food Sociology & Contemporary Issues Of Health & Nutrition. I learned a lot in her classes. Will be learning the history of mankind and food. We human beings are homonids. Under homonids, there were many homo groups such as homo sapiens (human beings), homo habilis, homo erectus, homo floresiensis etc. And did you know that when we eat carrots, we're actually consuming beta-carotene, until the beta carotene gets in touch with fats then only it'll be changed into Vitamin A. Did you know that you must consume Calcium with Vitamin D, if not Calcium won't be absorb? :)

I'm heading off to Terengganu/Kota Bahru later. For Daniel's promo. Haha, you guys must be thinking I'm crazy to go all the way there. I seriously don't know why I decided to go in the first place but I think it would be nice, I hope. I really hope. Danny will be at Sungai Wang later at 5pm for the Summer Concert "meet the fans session". Go meet him if you guys are free. Say hi to him for me. He's currently crazy over Transformer. He told me... in his blog. Hahaha! I'll be back :) I'll see you guys when I see you! Hopefully I can bring back some keropok lekor or something. Nyek nyek nyek. Don't miss me! But I'll miss you guys!

Go download Zhang Zhen Yue's "Si Nian Shi Yi Zhong Bing". Been listening to it the whole night. I just love this song so much. Missing a person is really a sickness. Upcoming fave - Jay Chou's "Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi". Another awesome song.


思念是一种病 (Si Nian Shi Yi Zhong Bing)
张震岳 (Zhang Zhen Yue)

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
Dang ni zai chuan shan yue ling de ling yi bian
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
Wo zai gu du de lu shang mei you jin tou
一辈子有多少的来不及
Yi bei zi you duo shao de lai bu ji
发现已经失去
Fa xian yi jing shi qu
最重要的东西
Zui zhong yao de dong xi
恍然大悟早已远去
Huang ran da wu zao yi yuan qu
为何总是在犯错之后
Wei he zong shi zai fan cuo zhi hou
才肯相信错的是自己
Cai ken xiang xin cuo de shi zi ji
他们说这就是人生
Ta men shuo zhe jiu shi ren sheng
试著体会试著忍住眼泪
Shi zhe ti hui shi zhe ren zhu yan lei
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
Hai shi duo bu kai ying gai you de qing xu

我不会奢求世界停止转动
Wo bu hui she qiu shi jie ting zhi zhuan dong
我知道逃避一点都没有用
Wo zhi dao tao bi yi dian dou mei you yong
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
Zhi shi zhe duan shi jian li you qi zai yie li
还是会想起难忘的事情
Hai shi hui xiang qi nan wang de shi qing
我想我的思念是一种病
Wo xiang wo de si nian shi yi zhong bing
久久不能痊愈
Jiu jiu bu neng quan yu

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
Dang ni zai chuan shan yue ling de ling yi bian
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
Wo zai gu du de lu shang mei you jin tou
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
Shi chang gan jue ni zai er hou de hu xi
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
Que wei cheng gan jue ni zai xin kou de bi xi

汲汲营营
Ji ji ying ying
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
Wang ji shen bian de ren xu yao ai he guan xin
藉口总是拉远了距离
Jie kou zong shi la yuan le ju li
不知不觉无声无息
Bu zhi bu jue wu sheng wu xi
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
Wo men zong shi zai bao yuan shi yu yuan wei
却不愿意回头看看自己
Que bu yuan yi hui tou kan kan zi ji
想想自己到底做了什么蠢事情
Xiang xiang zi ji dao di zuo le shen me chun shi qing

也许是上帝给我一个试炼
Ye xu shi shang di gei wo yi ge shi lian
只是这伤口需要花点时间
Zhi shi zhe shang kou xu yao hua dian shi jian
只是会想念过去的一切
Zhi shi hui xiang nian guo qu de yi qie
那些人事物会离我远去
Na xie ren shi wu hui li wo yuan qu
而我们终究也会远离
Er wo men zhong jiu ye hui yuan li
变成回忆
Bian cheng hui yi

Repeat Chorus

oh 思念是一种病
Oh Si nian shi yi zhong bing
oh 思念是一种病一种病
Oh si nian shi yi zhong bing yi zhong bing

多久没有说我爱你
Duo jiu mei you shuo wo ai ni
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
Duo jiu mei you yong bao ni suo ai de ren
当这个世界不在那么美好
Dang zhe ge shi jie bu zai na me mei hao
只有爱可以让他更好
Zhi you ai ke yi rang ta geng hao
我相信一切都来得及
Wo xiang xin yi qie dou lai de ji
别管那些纷纷扰扰
Bie guan na xie fen fen rao rao
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
Bie rang bu kai xin de shi ting xia le jiao bu
就怕你不说就怕你不做
Jiu pa ni bu shuo jiu pa ni bu zuo
别让遗憾继续一切都来得及
Bie rang yi han ji xu yi qie dou lai de ji

Chorus

I'm so touched.

Been having lack of sleep for the whole week. Hehe, some are because I have no choice, some I don't feel like to. Hehe!

Anyway, just to share with you guys that, Daniel is collaborating with Danny in his coming album! Whooooopeeeee! I sort of guessed it few days ago, reading Danny's blog + Daniel's interview. Then it's true! It's on today's paper! Daniel really liked Danny's "Yin Wei You Ai" and will be doing a cover version of it in his 2nd album coming soon. And Danny will be featuring the rap part. Plus he's also a producer for the song in the album. Yahooooo! Gosh, so sweet of Daniel to invite Danny and to do a cover version of HIS song!! Wow. That's the most amazing news I've heard in this year. Miracles DO happen. My 2 fave idols are collaborating together! Gosh! *pengsan*

Daniel and Danny: Thank you so so so much. I can't wait to buy this album.

Do you know what's the best photo of the century? This is:

Credit to: China Press
love hugs love hugs love hugs love hugs love hugs
oNe HeArT.oNe LoVe.oNe FaMiLy

Went to Sunway Pyramid to have lunch with PiggiEd and Tau Foo. Hehe! Wanted to eat at Zen at first, but we saw another Jap restaurant next to Zen. Rupa-rupanya is under Zen as well, forgot it's name though =_=" But it caters more of sushis and 'fast-food'. Open kitchen concept in the center of the conveyor belt, menu is almost the same as Zen (except no set lunches and dinners). Portion of food is smaller and cheaper. Has a few private rooms. And they serves the best Choco Banana Nut Parfait! I tell you, if you eat and you don't think it's nice, I can potong!!!! apple for you to eat. :) The parfait is absolutely fantastically fantasticaciously fantastic! Choc ice cream + vanilla ice cream + corn flakes + choc sauce + oreo crumbs + banana + chopped nuts. Nyum nyummmmm! Will try another parfait (strawberry parfait) next time when I go there. Speaking of which, thanks to Edmund for tempting me there. I am now officially working part time at Zen. Starting next week. Well, I need money anyway. Better work some fats off and earn back some good old cash. Sigh, no more star chasing for me luu... Weekends sure i'll be working one. How to chase star like that? Danny... ='(

I prayed...

Woah, gosh, been rushing like crazy, no time to even update my blog...
Went up to Genting for Ai Fm's 2nd Anniversary, supposingly I should be so excited to blog about it, but somehow I wasn't =_=" maybe because I was too tired to.

Nothing much happened seriously. We went up, we went for the show, we hunted for celebs and we came down. The show was quite nice actually. Funny. The screamings only started towards the end of the show. Artists involved are M-Girls, Yang Wei Han, Summer Grace, Nick Chung, Jasemaine, Eser, Anna, Yu Zhong and Danny! *love* and of course the ai fm DJs, and other sister radio stations djs. Got a surprise 'gift' for Danny... don't know if he's surprised, but hope he's happy with it :) That's the best I can do. We rushed to the post party venue after the show. Stood there and waited. Only manage to see YZ. Then only we know that the others are in the post party already =_=" We waited until they came out. And we tailed him. Until the hotel they're staying in. We stood at the lobby, waited. HT came down and asked "You all waiting for ___ ar? He left already la." =_=" Me, T, CY, ML cam-whore the whole night. Taking pics with the statue, mirror, stupid poses. Swt. Then we yum cha at the cafe nearby. Thinking that he will leave soon. YR was shivering so I decided not to wait anymore and walked towards our hotel. We went down the escalator and we bumped into them. =_=" They didn't see us of course. He was with his friends. Wearing that baggy sweater, macamlah people will not recognize him when he wear until so the obvious. Memang sakai.

D'One Fansi

We're suppose to act the LC look... but I'm already laughing.


5,4,3,2,1... kawaii nehhh (*vomits*)

One of my fave pic. (Me + Teng)

The four Sakais. Standing in the cold.

A hot frothy cup of Hot Choc. Yummeh. (Not mine though =_=")

Another nice pic. (Teng, why all the pics I take with you so nice one? Wakakakak!)

I came back from Genting, slept from 5pm to 3am the next morning. 4 smses came in also I didn't hear =_=" Studied for 2 hours (got exam =_=") and went back to sleep again at 6am and woke up only at 9.30am. Yes, I know I'm a cochon. I admit. Though I'm not born in the year of cochon.

Nothing to blog about my weekdays. Busy doing plannings and worrying about this Friday. Finished my novel. Craving to cook. Doing projects. Updating my CV. (Gosh, in a year's time I have to work already.) I have a chance to go Brunei for some reason. :) Good experience, good pay. But the probability of me going is 1/200. Because we were the last to know. =_="

I seriously envy them. They made me realize the meaning of TRUE FRIENDSHIP. Everlasting friendship. It's so nice to see all of them so close to each other. Backing each other up. Caring for each other. Missing each other. Laughing and having fun with each other. Going places together. Sharing stories with each other even though all are at different places, busy with their own work. Reading their blogs seriously makes me laugh. One thing, I can see that he's really happy when he's with them. :)

Dear God, I prayed for true friendship yesterday, and You gave me a big argument today.
Is this how you test the strength of our relationship?
I prayed for things to run smoothly, and You gave me conflicts today.
Is this the way you want to tell me that you have to work hard to make things run smoothly?

I really feel so sad today. I nearly cried in class. It was just a small matter. I can feel my anger shooting up but I controlled myself. This is the first time I felt the anger in myself. Why must all of you make it into a big issue? We're all aiming at the same purpose, but no, things have to go the other way round. I just want everybody to be happy. Is that wrong? Tell me! Is that wrong? Why can't we just put aside our differences and work together? Why can't all of us be tolerant against each other? Any problems, we can always work things out. No matter what, I will find a way to settle it. Is that wrong??? Tell me! Is that wrong? Just tell me why the heck must things end up so seriously? We're all old enough to think properly. Can't we just calm down and do things together? I really hope things can be as usual. Fionaaaaaaa, if only you're here... Sob sob. I really don't know how to handle these type of situations. I can tahan, I can be very patient, I can say nothing and just keep quiet. But don't ask me how to solve it. I tried to light things up. I just want all of us to be together happy happily for the rest of the year. Can we? I really hope so.

Craving for Cheras steamboat, craving for kim gary, craving for murni's ribena special, craving for ferrero rocher chocolate, craving for so many things...

Arghh... what a bad day.

Not As Expected

16 December 2006

Ahhh, finally, my 1 dreadful, tiring, stressful year of Higher Diploma has ended! Frankly, it was quite a stressful year, but maybe because last minute study guah... Tee hee! From theory to practical, though there's pressure, but everything's fun! I gained true friendship and had lots of fun with my besties and lecturers for the past year...

On this day, it's the results announcement day... And today is the day I cried the most in a day... I think worst than when I was first born, seriously!!! And to be frank, I'm crying right now writing this post...

We had high hopes on each other, expecting the best out of each other... Started off with the Diploma batch, then HD tourism, then us... I guess a lot of us from group 3 and 4 expected more... I thought I can make it to congrats... One by one, names were called out in alphabetical order in the particular mention... As i see one by one of my friends being called out... Ivy, Fiona, FQ, when they come back, they made me cry!!! Edmund, Amanda and I, we expected one of us will get VHPWC... However, "now i'll announce the students who gets the mention of Very Honorable Pass"... Liew Chien Hern Edmund... *oh kcuf! what happened*........ I prayed very hard for mine and Amanda's name not to come out next........... Siew Eve Lynn... *shit!* Went to collect the cert on stage from Mr Pierre, came down, and I can't control my tears anymore... Fiona hugged me, and I went straight to Pn Siti... She hugged me and I said "I'm sorry ma'am, I tried my best... I'm so sorry' ........ Teng Yin Sann Amanda...... *another shit!* Why must disappointments keep coming, god damn it! But at least Denise fought for it, and got a congrats... Pn Siti said our results are good compared to previous batches. And she said Mr Hisham (fnb external jury + taylor's alumni) said our batch's fnb is good :D

It's not that I cried because I didn't get congrats... Well, partly is that actually... But, I don't know why... I just feel that I've tried my best!! I thought I was okay! I received good comments! I did quite well in my theory papers! Perhaps my TIS pulled me down... I felt that we've disappoint our lecturers... Each lecturer I see, I give them a hug, and I end up crying more... Pn Siti, Mr Murad, Chef Patrick, Chef Chong, Chef Bala... I see them, I start crying... Pn Siti and Mr Murad helped us a lot a lot a lot a lot... they guided us through this whole year, motivated us, taught us, have faith in us... Even though our results are not that good, they comforted us and said we're the best! Edmund is going to study overseas, few others too... Sobz!!! Mr Wong KK said they were shocked by the results as well... they too expected more... Sigh... Had some coffee break, took loads and loads of pics with mostly everyone... Wanted to go for Ah Gong BKT but cancelled... So stayed and chat with Pn Siti... Which made me cry even more... She said she always loves us and will treat us like her own children, and will even fight to go to France with us for Degree... Mr Patrick came and said 'you say samore, i think this whole place will be flooded already' Me, Ker Ying and Ivy cried like dunno what water pipe burst like that... It's no doubt she gets the 'best lecturer of the year' this time :D

Went and check out the degree courses... I said I wanted to go Switz, but Pn Siti said Switz is not good... Australia still ok... but why not finish it here... The MEFS degree option is quite interesting... Perhaps I'll just do it here la... Don't think I can let go everything here in M'sia to go overseas... though only for just a year....

Yesterday night was DFC's 1st anniversary... It was a blast!!! Daniel had fun too, I think... Although he was sick... Didn't manage to get a pic with him... But, anyway... It doesn't matter anymore... Getting too deep into it will only cause sadness and hurt... Some of you will know what I mean... I wished he could talk more in hosting the games... But he's sick, so I should forgive him. He opened up a lot compared to last time, pinkies this, pinkies that, which is good! And he said 'you guys are the best fan club I've ever seen!'

Just now was the Perfect 100 Charity Concert in Bkt Jalil... It was a blast! With soooooooooo many artists involved - local and international... Ah Du, JJ, Lin Yu Chong, Guang Liang, Daniel, Kwok Fai, Nan Fang Er Chong Chang, Cozzi, Zheng Shu Qin, Aki, Lee Zhi Qing, Zhang Jue Long, Will, Jeff Chang, Tong An Ge, Jin Sha. I enjoyed the Aki, Zhi QIng, Jeff and Will's section the most!!! They sang all the previous gold hits. Zhi Qing's and Will's guitar playing is dammmnnn chunted! And I also liked Nan Fang Er Chong Chang and Zheng Shu Qin's section... they sang some old songs... their harmonizing, fuhhh cantik siul!!! LYC sang Kong Qiu Qian and Zhu Ti Qu!!! Guang Liang sang Tong Hua and I Am Who I AM (and they premier his MV there!), Daniel sang Fei and You Ji (he msged aunty swan asking where we're seating, so that when he come out he knows where to wave >.<"), Kwok Fai played his saxaphone and it was superbly awesome! I guess he practiced it a lotttttt of times! It was very good!!!!!!

That's about it lah... No mood to write anymore... Thanks to some people.... Fake people... Shoe polishers... Batu api... Fakers... Whatever you call them... I am so freaking sick of all these fake people... I just don't want to know or see anything of it anymore..... I'm leaving! I quit!!!!!!!!