Rojak-ted

Have you ever hope on things that as a matter of fact you know it just won't happen?

Have you ever want to give up on something that doesn't belong to you in the first place?

Have you ever missed someone who never exist at all?

Have you ever lied to others, or even to yourself to make yourself feel better?

Have you ever tried to get away from something or someone for better, but it gets worse?

Ok, I don't know why these craps are in my head. I'm feeling pretty sucky now. And having all these mixed up feelings inside me. I'm feeling happy, sad, jealous, excited, frustrated, anxious, emo, grateful, thankful, hateful, lost, resistant. Suddenly it seems like all the bad stuff is happening. But... I just don't know what they are. I never thought of suicide, but I am wondering what use do I have existing in this world.

Things changed. People changed. Even I myself changed. A sentence from the song Downfall suddenly struck me. 'you don't know anything on the other side of me' pretty cool right? I mean, yeah, only I myself know what's really in me. But there are even times where I don't really know myself. Sometimes I can just keep quiet without talking for hours (not including sleeping lah), just wanna stay at home and do nothing, talk to no one. Maybe being used to it, the feeling of being alone is kinda entertaining actually. So don't be surprise if I just don't talk at all. It's just.. well.. me.

It gets pretty sucky when all the while you thought you knew the fact, but when you found out that it isn't, even though it was not a lie in the first place. Some people lie to make you feel better, but when you found out the truth or something you presume is the truth, the feeling is kinda like a knot tied in your stomach.

Aih. I don't know what am I crapping. I'm losing... losing a battle which I never step into; losing the bond that used to be unbreakable; losing to others, and losing to oneself.

Sick...

Don't know who has been missing cursing me so much I started sneezing when I was in Wing's Puchong for Pei Jie's singing session. Horrible horrible.

Now down with slight fever, soar throat and stucked nose. Guess it's the weather la.

Wanted to blog about bro's birthday party on Friday but the mind is temporarily out of service.

Going Singapore for four days tomorrow, with parents. No strength to pack. Headache, backache, eyes also ache. Better go sleep now.

Tata for now. Miss u all. *wub* Enjoy your weekdays :)

[Book] Jodi Picoult - My Sister's Keeper

6am now. Hey hey hey! Rise and shine, but I haven't even sleep yet. =_=" Don't have to remind me that I am still in US time zone. My stomach's growling, my eyes drooping but I don't want to sleep just in case I oversleep later. But I am still thinking whether I should go out or not.

A book that I manage to lend from a good friend. It's the type of book where you can't stop reading it until you finish it but *gulps* I took more than a few months to read it.

It tells a story about Kate having a rare leukemia disease, and Anna, a designer baby born to donate parts of her blood, bone marrow and parts of her body to her sister. Anna files a petition towards her parents for 'forcing' her to help her sister. Does Anna have the rights to make her own decision over her own body? Is Anna selfish because she wants the best of herself and not wanting to help her sister anymore?

I think the best part was the ending. I don't think I cried so much for a book. Yes, i am an emo sillo person. A book really worth reading, plus I found a lot of meaningful quotes in this book.

- No matter who you are, there is some part of you that always wishes you were someone else

- Who we are isn't so much about what we do; but rather what we're capable of when we least expect it

- Love is when you care more if someone else lives more than you do about yourself

- It doesn't take a whole long life to realize that what we deserve to have, we rarely get

- You don't love someone because they're perfect, you love them in spite of the fact that they're not

Next: Jodi Picoult's 'The Pact' :)

Magical Kagaya

Have you all heard of Kagaya art? Or seen the beautiful images of Kagaya art?

I remember first saw Kagaya arts when I was in high school. They were available in puzzle forms in various puzzle shops (even in pasar malam). I forgot which birthday was it that I was given a completed Kagaya puzzle of my horoscope as a birthday present. I still keep it with me until now.

Kagaya stands for Kagaya Yutaka, a Japanese digital artist. He is known for painting all these colourful, magical artwork. Really remarkable indeed.

There are hundreds of paintings but somehow, my favorite is this:

Andromeda

Every morning when Eos,
the goddess of dawn,
with the rosy fingers,
drops stars and dews on the silence, Princess Andromeda
is cleansing herself alone in the lake.

She prays,
in the water as pure and clean as she,

"May our home country be in peace."

Everything goes
quietly,deeply and moderately,
before the south-eastern wind,
Euros,comes.

I'm just so impressed with the fine arts in these designs. It speaks a thousand words. Peace, serenity, blessing, hope, dream, magical. It just calms me down looking at these pics.

Some of the artwork:

My horoscope sign ;)

Speaking of magical, Christmas reminds me of magical. Lights around the christmas tree, lights on the streets, christmas songs everywhere, santa claus, raindeers, snow, pressies and of course holidayyyyeeee! It just brightens me up thinking about Christmas. Time flies like no one's business. What's your impression on Christmas ye? *sings* Santa Claus is coming to town～～

[Lyrics] Jay Chou - Dao Xiang

Woot! Ok, this album is not cheap. 3 digits. And the most expensive album I ever bought in 22 years of life. (Will be for the coming 70 years too *if I live up to 92*)

Album name 魔杰座 （Capricorn) CD of 11 Tracks and Bonus DVD of 2 MVs. I bought the imported album which comes in a metal box (as above) and a Rubik's Cube. Though I don't dare to twist the cube, worrying I won't be able to fix it.



I really like the album cover but the booklet photos were ok only lah, maybe cuz I was expecting very magical pics inside. But the album still rocks. Listening for the first time I find it so so, but upon hearing it a few times (I guess that happens often in many albums) it's pretty cool. Still as 'Jay' as usual.

Personal fave: Dao Xiang, Long Zhan Qi Shi, Hua Hai, Shuo Hao De Xing Fu Ne, Liu Lang Shi Ren, Shi Guang Ji.


Currently, find Dao Xiang very motivating. Nice lyrics. So here it is! Kinda lazy to pinyin it myself , and coincidently found it at fuiyoh.com, with english translation too. I repeat, very DIRECT english translation, so erm, bare with it.

Dao Xiang 稻香
Performed, lyrics & melody by: Jay Chou 周杰伦


dui zhe ge shi jie ru guo ni you tai duo de bao yuan

对 这 个 世 界 如 果 你 有 太 多 的 抱 怨

If you have too many complain in this world

die dao le jiu bu gan ji xu wang qian zou

跌 倒 了 就 不 敢 继 续 往 前 走

Once fall down, you won't have a courage to move forward

wei shen me ren yao zhe me de cui ruo duo luo

为 什 么 人 要 这 么 的 脆 弱 堕 落

Why does human so fragile

qing ni da kai dian shi kan kan

请 你 打 开 电 视 看 看

Please switch on the TV and watch

duo shao ren wei sheng ming zai nu li yong gan de zou xia qu

多 少 人 为 生 命 在 努 力 勇 敢 的 走 下 去

How many people try hard and brave to move forward just because of living�

wo men shi bu shi gai zhi zu

我 们 是 不 是 该 知 足

Shouldn't we feel enough

zhen xi yi qie jiu suan mei you yong you

珍 惜 一 切 就 算 没 有 拥 有

Treasure what you have now, even you have nothing you actually own everything�

Chorus:

*hai ji de ni shuo jia shi wei yi de cheng bao

还 记 得 你 说 家 是 唯 一 的 城 堡

Remember back then you said home is the only castle

sui zhe dao xiang he liu ji xu ben pao

随 著 稻 香 河 流 继 续 奔 跑

Fragrance rice, as the river continue flowing

wei wei xiao xiao shi hou de meng wo zhi dao

微 微 笑 小 时 候 的 梦 我 知 道

Slightly smile, dream of childhood, I know

bu yao ku rang ying huo chong dai zhe ni tao pao

不 要 哭 让 萤 火 虫 带 著 你 逃 跑

Don't cry, let firefly bring you running.

xiang jian de ge yao yong yuan de yi kao

乡 间 的 歌 谣 永 远 的 依 靠

Forever rely on village folk song

hui jia ba hui dao zui chu de mei hao*

回 家 吧 回 到 最 初 的 美 好

Go home, back to the beginning of beauty

bu yao zhe me rong yi jiu xiang fang qi

不 要 这 么 容 易 就 想 放 弃

Don't give up so fast

jiu xiang wo shuo de

就 像 我 说 的

Like what I said

zhui bu dao de meng xiang huan ge meng bu jiu de le

追 不 到 的 梦 想 换 个 梦 不 就 得 了

The dream you can't achieve, just exchange it, you got it

wei zi ji de ren sheng xian yan shang se

为 自 己 的 人 生 鲜 艳 上 色

Let you life coloured brightly.

xian ba ai tu shang xi huan de yan se

先 把 爱 涂 上 喜 欢 的 颜 色

First, let paint the love with favourite colour

xiao yi ge ba gong cheng ming jiu bu shi mu di

笑 一 个 吧 功 成 名 就 不 是 目 的

Smile, become famous not the purpose

rang zi ji kuai le kuai le zhe cai jiao zuo yi yi

让 自 己 快 乐 快 乐 这 才 叫 做 意 义

Let yourself happy, is more meaningful

tong nian de zhi fei ji

童 年 的 纸 飞 机

Childhood paper plane

xian zai zhong yu fei hui wo shou li

现 在 终 于 飞 回 我 手 里

Finally, now fly back to my hand

suo wei de na kuai le

所 谓 的 那 快 乐

So called happiness

chi jiao zai tian li zhui qing ting zhui dao lei le

赤 脚 在 田 里 追 蜻 蜓 追 到 累 了

Barefoot on (rice)field, catch dragonfly until tired

tou zhai shui guo bei mi feng gei ding dao pa le

偷 摘 水 果 被 蜜 蜂 给 叮 到 怕 了

Pluck fruit, scared being sting by bee

shei zai tou xiao ne

谁 在 偷 笑 呢

Who, laughing, woollen cloth

wo kao zhu dao cao ren chui zhu feng chang zhu ge shui zhao le

我 靠 著 稻 草 人 吹 著 风 唱 著 歌 睡 著 了

I lean against the scarecrow/straw man, blow by the wind, singing and then

sleep

Oh! Oh! wu hou ji ta zai chong ming zhong geng qing cui

哦 哦 午 后 吉 它 在 虫 鸣 中 更 清 脆

Oh! Oh! Afternoon guitar accompany by insect singing make it more melodious

Oh! Oh! yang guang sa zai lu shang jiu bu pa xin sui

哦 哦 阳 光 洒 在 路 上 就 不 怕 心 碎

Oh! Oh! Sunlight shine on the road, don't worry heart will broken

zhen xi yi qie jiu suan mei you yong you

珍 惜 一 切 就 算 没 有 拥 有

Treasure what you have now, even you have nothing you actually own everything

Repeat Chorus x 2